birthday today lol. somehow not as significant as other years, nor was it much cause for excitement or whatever. but got no energy these days anyhow lol. thanks everyone who remembered ^.^ and for gifts/letter.
hmm anyway lifes quite sian. and my buddys going ooc, so thats a pity, and another cause for sian-ness.

yea. thats it for update lol. if anyone reads it o.O

then everything went crazy

lol i know i shouldnt be here on the eve of the great As, but. ok so the last month has been spent slacking, and i havent mugged as much as i should have, and if i screw this up then i only have myself to blame. and my life appears to be slowly decaying o.O. oh yesh btw this isnt going to take 10 minutes, my previous posts mostly took like an hour lol

so i havent blogged about alot of things, like prelims and how emo i am about leaving rj and what i actually think of the school etc. etc. but in the spirit of my old posts, some of which inspire much cringing (only some, not as bad as it used to be lol) i shall discuss..what i've learnt ^.^. eh actually i already blogged about that in the last post o.O but nevermind.

so. firstly. i am not a nice guy. i must confess, lol ^_^. but as they say, self-knowledge is the first step to..something, i forgot what o.O. secondly. i should try to believe people sometimes. thirdly i'm too harsh on people, and myself, maybe. i know that contradicts my first point, but. fourthly, timing is everything. sometimes. whatever that means, lol. things might get screwed up, but i shall just have to learn that things are under control? future tense, hence not fifthly. fifthly, im sure theres more, but i should go do gp. it's not so much the memory, but what it means that ought to count. once again i only half-know what that means o.O

rawr.

gives, and takes away

boredom brings me back. ehh but then i dunno what to write. havent written anything proper since. wow i've never written anything proper, lol. not here anyway, and probably not in exams either, judging from grades. -.- but i ceased giving a damn about that a long time ago. which i suppose is a bad thing. heh but the words come out clear enough in my head.

man i really need to get down to mugging o.O. but there appear to be many distractions. two major exams in three months = major drainage of mugging energy.

bleagh.

okay anyway one important lesson that i've not really learnt over my relatively short (so far, at least) life would be that following ones better judgement is usually a good practice, despite its possibly extremely counter-intuitive nature. 'cause there are Consequences. lol. or rather, things to lose. conversely, not attending to ones compulsions has Benefits. so i just thought i would pretend to be a wise person and dish out wise-sounding advice -.-.

on another random note.
Conflict and Resolution have always been the basis for any substantial plot. i suppose that includes life -.o even if resolutions arent necessarily good all the time o.O

can never know.

haha okay its been awhile. brief respite from 1-sub-a-day mugging. or 2. leaving me quite bored. and pokemon having been nothing but a grand waste of time sees me deciding to cut down on it >.<. a little, lol. getting boring anyway. but i have just made the most astonishing discovery that pokemon moves use attack and special attack not based on the type of attack >.<. i.e. surf uses special attack while waterfall uses attack. which means i have been deluded for a very longgg time. papers were shit, and i dont think its hit me yet that these are prelims. in my visions from the start of the year im supposed to be starting to score As now. not going to happen. and school's out. =/ i actually dislike school most of the time, lol. still, school's one of the things that keep my life together and all. dota is another. can't play well anymore though, tried taking over from my brother after half an hour just now and got properly owned.

i think im supposed to be emo about school here or something. =/but too sleepy to continue. be back next month. or year or whatever >.<

Site will be temporarily(maybe) dead xD

little holes and light.

rawr. im starting to get a little panicky o.O h3 essay undone, havent touched two of the texts since beginning of this year/end of last year, brief notes on one of them. hmm. i wonder about the cause for all that apathy about work. lol. and i just discovered ali smith is a lesbian this afternoon -.- weather is depressing. its not raining outright, but sky looks threatening. looked threatening, now its just mildly...ugh. for lack of a better word. maybe stressing too much. maybe too little. and the rest is intangible. ^^

if thats what you want

i'm fine.i guess. haha while i actually feel like blogging (not doing maths) i might as well update.

i have spent almost the entire day in my room. and i fell asleep without switching off my laptop last night so im quite surprised it hasnt exploded or anything yet. Anyway. im serious about the entire day thing. still quite unproductive. lol and its friday already. hmm. and my table is like. art. also i am better able to grasp the full extent of the rate of hair dropping. and i realize that my floor is damn dusty. which may or may not be because my maid has no chance to sweep it since i'm always in here.

haha i think i might go crazy soon ><. from the being in one place for too long alone while resisting every temptation to dota. then again i am arguably already on that path -.-

my CTs are dead. like, really. i dont mind, really. lol. or at least part of me doesnt =/

my excellent prediction is that i will fall asleep without switching off the laptop again tonight. then i will end up sleeping on my specs again. or something. they are still in relatively good condition lol. well they dont cost >250 bucks for nothing i guess .

felt like doing the 10 people thing. awhile back lol. but nahhh. however, if you should want to know what i have to say to you (if i have anything to say to you at all) you may pay me a dollar and i shall personally send you an email! wow.