T(AT)

In more ways than two. Ha. titular genius. wdv that means. anyway been wanting to blog for quite some time. wanted to blog about The Accidental, which i read, after wangtings sort-of recommendation, and reading the first chapter like long ago. so despite my half-crazed thoughts of blogging something half-psychotic in accordance with the narrative tone of the book, which was at that time stuck in my head, i wont. instead all i will say is Go Read It.

Anyway. my bloody body clock seems to be unable to adapt to the holidays. as such i have been getting around 6 hours of sleep. for example on pw op day i woke up at 530. before going back to sleep for 10 minute intervals or something. today was another 530 day, but managed to go back to sleep, till seven. which is still abnormal for a saturday, and also considering my completely wearing myself out the last 2 days. maybe it was the dream, which was seriously weird, but provided abit of relief. well, you were in it.
You were on the floor. the floor! Im tired. course you are. I have my principles. Yes, they are tiring are they not. I have my reasons; have you forgotten. I should. Inadequacy, You say. yeah well maybe. You dont understand me, You cry, to no one in particular. Ah cut your emo-angst.I dont know; dont know; dont know. Ha; sorry, but i'll have to go with you on that one. uhh right. anyway You werent in my dream. And well no that wasnt the dream. anyway i woke up at 7 again and found my hair messier than it had been in ages(actually i think that had something to do with my sleeping with my hair wet). so much for half-psychotic paragraphs.

Why is always the most important question. once you got that sorted out, the rest is a-okay, smooth sailing, merry christmas, send a bouquet, put a s(t)ock(ing) in it. more or less. why did you? why would you? why were you? why do this? why not? why wonder why, when you you know youre not going to get an answer (i think too much)? still You do it, over and over, but whatever_, Time After Time. wooo half-psychotic paragraph once more.

lol okay anyway. no im not going crazy/committing suicide/depressed/lovesick/wdv. why not? uhh next paragraph. anyway past few days have been rather busy. okay recap. thursday. well. i am rather proud of myself for having done op, buying herman (and unecessary tupperware), rushing home to chiong InR in 2 hours, gone out again, lanning till 11, and not having dropped dead. dinner was...pretty good? i mean we did as best as circumstance would allow =/. and hey at least i managed to keep herman alive ^^. friday, was out the whole day, and i am rather proud of myself for not having dropped dead. still. vadis play was...alright i guess. was observing this old angmoh couple at the corner. they never laughed, not once. and after vadi came out i saw their seats empty. but i guess thats just my problem, i give too much shit about what people think.

Yay and so i get to today. went on the doulos, which, for the ignorant, is a missionary ship (if thats the proper phrase for it) that sails the world. basically i was half-conned into going. you see there was an announcement in church last week for people to take care of the u-12s i.e. pri sch chillun, who were going on a tour of the ship. but. sometimes the memory takes shortcuts. like, skips a few bits of detail. so i completely forgot about that, and when jianhorng (my dg leader, for the ignorant) smsed me if i was available to go, i felt obliged to, thinking everyone else would be there. okay anyway so ended up being a junior caretaker or something like that. cos adults outnumber youths, adults+youths outnumber children. so uhh. yeah.not like i did much. so the ship was pretty boring, seeing how the less-than-30-minute tour was targetted at children. but yea well. interesting to note how each of them on board must have some fascinating story to tell. they could compile stuff into a journal, and put it in the bookshop, and i would buy that, cos the bookstores nothing much imo =/. haha they were playing music in the bookstore. uhh they played Still ( i think thats what its called).how apt that it should be raining everywhere. and yeah theres not that much shelter around.to cut a long story short, i got wet. yay one of the reasons why i dont change hairstyle. to look upon my reflection in the mirror when my hair is rain soaked. lol! anyway ended up laughing quite deliriously. and i was happy for the next few hours.

and so ends my very long post. and whassup with the inefficiency. for the record, its 1:08 now. below should be the time i started typing. and uhh in case i sound half-crazed, this(actually its probably just the half-psychotic paragraphs) is what you get from pacing round church while staring at the floor, for half an hour? in circles no less. if i do, well screw tat lol. then again, nvm.

[Right. so im sort of editing a little. woke up at 630 today i.e. the next morning/the same morning. how nice 5 hrs of sleep. =.=. sucks that blog posts never turn out the way i want them to. and uhh tell me if you think youve figured out all the possible interpretations of the title ^^]