zzz more of the old stuff.

my money is gone. along with my sanity, having gone almost 2 months with very little contact with real people. yesterday i decided to test my ability to walk around crowded places alone, there being a need for christmas presents. now i wish as much as you do that you could get them from me, however much you might wish that, but ur not getting any, due to budget constraints ( i mean if i had all the money in the world i would definitely buy everyone i know presents) so i guess its safe to talk/complain/wdv about my present-buying exploits. so anyway despite feeling extremely reluctant, i managed to get myself out of the house. was contemplating parkway, but decided on orchard. (relatively) unknown territory. so anyway, in brief, spent most of the time at kai-no-kuniyer(irish/scottish accent effect pls, its infectious). as an indicator of how lost i was, i think i must have walked past the same spot thrice while looking for the literature section.

hmm got on beauty for my mom >.<. i might have to borrow it for h3 lit so i guess that sucks lol. but thats not really why i got it, cos i could get them to pay for my lit texts if i continue with h3 anw. honestly it was because i hardly read anything, and getting something i havent actually read would be...not very good. lol i saw the inheritance of loss while in the (very long) queue, and jumped out of it to contemplate it. the accidental> on beauty but the...sick part might make my mom start to wonder about the stuff i read lol. doesnt help that The Light of Day which i am currently sort of reading has a cover pic of a womans...knees (crossed legs Oo, meant to be knees).

umm i got my sister a maple card, which i regret now. lol. but it was hard to walk out of the empty world of jj at eunos where there was just me and the shopkeeper, not after i asked her where i could find one. but wattheshit its 10 bucks for 10k cash, which is absurd. 10k cash cant even get nice pets (which i suspect my sister is going to use the card for), which cost 12k cash -.-. very smart, the buggers.

so that was all i got done yesterday. crap still have my dad and bro, and 2 days minus alot of time. and i realize i dont/didnt really know what to get any of them. haha now i just hope my parents get christmas presents for us, cos it would be quite awkward if they didnt >< (also it would be nice to get stuff ). i honestly dont know if they are going to, this is the first year i am getting anybody xmas presents. i dont remember getting any from them before either ><

crap if only what fluency of thought/writing i may possess could come out in speech. this lack was demonstrated when some idiot survey woman for some cruise company called today.

Hell, or what would be enough for it, is where people in chains are made to kneel in front of and stare at a wall with 'fool' in huge block letters written on it for an eternity. or until they lose all sense of themselves. hmm maybe my life is too comfy.

heh. so much for fluency of thought/writing