i will begin by stating the obvious. its December. December tends to have some meaning does it not. melancholy, or something. the recent almost perfect for staying at home weather has come to an end, and already one can feel the stifling, suffocating, treacherous heat that seems about to dominate most of next year coming in.

quite frustrating, after reading a book for some amount of time, funny things tend to get inside my head. bits of stuff that might pass off as decent writing if written down. and some angst. 15 minutes later it disappears though, and i forget.

so how was 2006. recap i guess. started with orientation. that was pretty much the shittiest time of the year, imo. was waking up at 4 am everyday during orientation. didnt know many people. uhh make that anyone. laughter was forced and conversations awkward. oh well. thats just me i guess. the time after that was really quite blurred. everyday was mostly the same i guess. most of my year was in my thoughts. and we dont really remember thoughts, do we? or emotions. i mean we still can replicate them to some extent, while their scent lingers, but after awhile its only the shell of events we remember. i can look through my archives and remember i had meant something a little more, but cant recall what now. which is probably a pity. umm yes, so much for recap. to be continued.

So, its the new year. well, half an hour to it(yes its taken me that long to type that little, and no there wasnt much thought put into that). so what, lol. its not like it ever had any significance. the earth has gone one round, approximately, around the sun. if it were to be exact new year wouldnt fall at the stroke of midnight would it. that it goes in rounds and orbits should be enough to tell us one can never find beginnings or ends. but i guess since humanity decides this should be the time to take stock of the past cycle, and do stuff with themselves to prepare for the next, i should too lol. how then should new year be spent.

However it should be or might be, or how i want it to be, i have little or no clue. no matter, who gives a shit about the brief span of time between one year and another in the solar calender anyway. but theres always the little truths beyond the whole mess(which one need not give two shits about in the first place), that provide a little bit of a reason for a smile. for those, along with a whole lot of other things, i am grateful. and let that be a little truth.

i think dota has ceased to matter very much. think we all saw it coming lol. from a long way away. but hey, it was great. no, i dont think we choose our friends. at least its the ones we dont choose that we have stronger friendships with. (this is all non-confirmed btw) lol, seriously moca, u obviously know, i hardly liked u in s3. i do not know what inspired me to lend u the disc.(haha actually i do, and so do u =/) well i do know my reasons for getting it were not really reasons at all, so i guess thats the best thing i ever did with it. my best holidays, at least the ones i can remember, were those of sec3 december. ah yes i remember the routine. 1v1s and inhouse all day long =p. inhouses were so much funner, i dont really care if the standard sucked lol. well. honestly i didnt expect myself, or any of us to still be playing. so i remember winning xiong cz and danny(lol partly why i like sniper =/), and the stupid tournament, (even if we did get owned, the 2v2 the day before was incredibly fun lol) and winning that 1v1 tourney match. (last thursday of term 2, i remember, was bloody high after that, couldnt sleep for an hour+ after that, didnt really care) started out with dota, and went, still going, way beyond that. but well, since we're not playing anymore. It was Great. lol. therefore, to moca, xinrui, wangting, weiren, beedict, jenson, jishun(even if u never really played =p), jonnybai, shaun sim, shaosheng, ben koh, elbert etc etc, thanks. think i'll quit soon too, or at least reduce playing time by alot. playing alone is not much fun. well thats goodbye to the dota part of the so called dota club.(for tonight i will acknowledge the name ><). shitty comps, sianness, and better things to do with our lives have finally claimed all of us. lol.

So I Thank God For family. For old friends. For not-so-old friends( by now, new is hardly the right word). and well, for God.

and heres to next year. this year by now actually. to beginnings of beautiful things, strengthening, and good endings (for it will be a year of endings, no? though it makes me sad just thinking about it)

Alright. its January. whats January like, i guess i'll find out. gl hf gg pls no mh.

Merry Christmas

to you.

Merry Almost-Christmas

..which was where i ate this morning.

this ones for the record i guess. i hardly remember what i do every christmas eve. or any other time of the year for that matter.

Heres a conversation i had with my 6 yr old cousin yesterday at the tea ceremony. the gist of it anyway, dont remember very well. so it was about uhhh...fatness.

'the fattest boy in my class is justin (follows with a list of adjectives to describe justin and her relationship with him'
'u like him right!'
'noo i dont like him! (follows with some elaboration he bullies her or something or pulls her hair or something)'
-conversation switches to something else for awhile i think, due to the other people in the room, or maybe the bride arrived cant remember.
'u like justin right!'
'nooo he's not.....mine' i start frowning a little.
'not ur what?'
'not....mine'
either her vocab is ownage, or...she is ownage. anyway. later that day. actually just a few minutes away.
'u like justin right!'
'nooo i like....b*******, hes a -slight pause- gentleman'(privacy protection laws)
eh lol. kindergarten crushes =p.

anyway after that everytime i saw her that day (quite alot) i went 'b*******!' how irritating am i =/. (dont answer that) she never acknowledged, or gave further details of course. but she did develop tendencies to start whacking me.

the wedding was..okay lor. except for the part where the groom(my cousin is the bride) came to tell their story. which was really quite sad, for one guy at least. who was in attendance. ouch. nice guys lose out i guess. no i dont think i will tell it.

hmm. an rj guy came to church today. dont know him, not really. not sure if hes staying, but yay. lol. his name i shall withhold, lest he gets assaulted by...mutual acquaintances.

anyway. more storytelling is up next, with part II of christmas present exploits.
heh. it really did seem like nice weather for a walk. from the third floor it didnt look like it was raining at all -.- . oh and i lied =/. told me mum i was going to buy christmas presents for a class gathering. (ok not really, 4i gathering soon). could have gotten a lift, but i duno, the idea of getting a lift to buy a present for the guy whos giving u a lift sounds pretty absurd to me. so walked to, then aimlessly around parkway for quite some time before discovering they have a life bookshop lol. wont mention what exactly i got, cos uhhh i have come to the conclusion that it is vaguely rude. and i shall have to get used to my very crappy decision making process. not sure if wad i got was appropriate, but whatever. at the cashier was pretty jacked, i asked if i could just take the goods off the shelf, then the girl said yes, then i did, then the guy said which one do u want i'll get you a new one. shit lol. then the guy handed me what i bought after taking it out of the box, then i said i could just have it in the box, then he told me its for me to check if anythings broken -.-. shit again. then i was out of the shop before the girl went excuse me sir..sorry, but u havent paid. (._.) it was still raining when i started walking home. i love my umbrella. made a detour to get my sister another present(the same one) . to be fair lol. now all i have to do is...wrap them. by tmr morning.

this kinda weather= perfect christmas weather. even if it does require an umbrella. after all you know what they say about rain and all. hopes of new beginnings and something better. which usually never come. things i suppose looked a whole lot more promising last year, jc and orientation and all. but this year..i duno, maybe. (no u idiots not my love life lol). today the thought crossed my mind that really i should never have been complaining or lamenting or silently flaming. maybe its really no ones fault but mine. just crossed. briefly. either way, change is coming. (still not my love life)

zzz more of the old stuff.

my money is gone. along with my sanity, having gone almost 2 months with very little contact with real people. yesterday i decided to test my ability to walk around crowded places alone, there being a need for christmas presents. now i wish as much as you do that you could get them from me, however much you might wish that, but ur not getting any, due to budget constraints ( i mean if i had all the money in the world i would definitely buy everyone i know presents) so i guess its safe to talk/complain/wdv about my present-buying exploits. so anyway despite feeling extremely reluctant, i managed to get myself out of the house. was contemplating parkway, but decided on orchard. (relatively) unknown territory. so anyway, in brief, spent most of the time at kai-no-kuniyer(irish/scottish accent effect pls, its infectious). as an indicator of how lost i was, i think i must have walked past the same spot thrice while looking for the literature section.

hmm got on beauty for my mom >.<. i might have to borrow it for h3 lit so i guess that sucks lol. but thats not really why i got it, cos i could get them to pay for my lit texts if i continue with h3 anw. honestly it was because i hardly read anything, and getting something i havent actually read would be...not very good. lol i saw the inheritance of loss while in the (very long) queue, and jumped out of it to contemplate it. the accidental> on beauty but the...sick part might make my mom start to wonder about the stuff i read lol. doesnt help that The Light of Day which i am currently sort of reading has a cover pic of a womans...knees (crossed legs Oo, meant to be knees).

umm i got my sister a maple card, which i regret now. lol. but it was hard to walk out of the empty world of jj at eunos where there was just me and the shopkeeper, not after i asked her where i could find one. but wattheshit its 10 bucks for 10k cash, which is absurd. 10k cash cant even get nice pets (which i suspect my sister is going to use the card for), which cost 12k cash -.-. very smart, the buggers.

so that was all i got done yesterday. crap still have my dad and bro, and 2 days minus alot of time. and i realize i dont/didnt really know what to get any of them. haha now i just hope my parents get christmas presents for us, cos it would be quite awkward if they didnt >< (also it would be nice to get stuff ). i honestly dont know if they are going to, this is the first year i am getting anybody xmas presents. i dont remember getting any from them before either ><

crap if only what fluency of thought/writing i may possess could come out in speech. this lack was demonstrated when some idiot survey woman for some cruise company called today.

Hell, or what would be enough for it, is where people in chains are made to kneel in front of and stare at a wall with 'fool' in huge block letters written on it for an eternity. or until they lose all sense of themselves. hmm maybe my life is too comfy.

heh. so much for fluency of thought/writing

With a capital P

i dont believe i have seen any sun since coming back. i think it has been raining 50% of the time as well. oh well. its pretty cool at least. no pun. rainy afternoons are after all better than those afternoons where the weather cant decide what it wants to be, and results in the sky taking on a greyish colour with no character. although that is a very selfish mindset that does not take into consideration the people whose cars got stuck in waist high flood water.

well today was a..pacing day. again. (that is not to say yesterday was a pacing day) radio on(it always is, and thats how i got to know about the waist high flood water. i also heard about the flooding, and various traffic congestions more than 4 times on traffic watch, and once on the news update. ) and book more or less untouched. no comp. this was really because my 3 cousins and 1 sister were occupying both of them, and occasionally all 3 of them, where the third one is pretty useless. except for spinning the wheel of monotony. =.=.

in other news i have been tagged by lim min. i guess i could take this as new year resolutions.

Five things you want to get done --
1) must...read...bible...
2) brush my teeth before i go to sleep. this will at least be my third attempt at establishing this habit. wish me luck.
3) well i suppose i should learn to treat girls as..girls. sigh okay look its been a long time, and i think people would agree with me that where im from, a razorblade for a tongue is a fairly valuable asset and instinct. at the same time so is immunity to insults.(but that doesnt mean you dont hit back).
4) i must not walk forwards while looking backwards. enough of that.
5) uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i cant think of anything. must carve immunity idol?

christmas is coming. no time for shopping. though i admit i have never been christmas shopping before. also, the number of people about to receive presents from me has dropped, such that if ur reading this, ur probably not. going to get anything from me.

hmm i think there should be more (what else do you think i do while pacing) but i am unable to replay or recall my thoughts. so thats all folks Oo.

oh well i guess i could just ramble on about stuff. hmm yesterday i watched bridget jones 2: the edge of reason. the whole show, for the first time. i think, if theres a moral of the story, it would have to be, it pays to watch till the end. for one i had seen the boring beginning like 3 times before and gave up. for one, the show only gets really funny from the time colin firth fights with hugh grant and they get all wet. i also find it most unfair that they should mention hugh grants name before colin firth in the opening credits.

uhh my brothers off at some random church camp. so thats a good thing i guess lol. in an addition to the last post, why is it that singaporeans tend to imitate ang mohs accents whenever they meet one, but the ang mohs accents dont change. (i never said singaporeans dont include me)

xr and moca have stopped playing dota, more or less. so i guess lzwl is going to stop too....soon. like by the end of next year.

i am screwed for schoolwork, as i cannot remember any of the stuff from last year. no, not vectors, nor othello, which phang so kindly reminded me of, nor...uhh ....umm...see i cant remember anything else. woo i shall remain apathetic about it.

Holiday number x to bintan.

where x is a number i have lost count of. except this time we didnt go to the usual bintan lagoon resort, instead opting for club med. which really had nothing special. so what, you ask, did i do in bintan. hmmmm. basically nothing that couldnt be done in singapore. uhhh i ate alot. and drowned myself in orange juice, since it had a dispenser while they expect you to pour soft drinks urself. and played badminton, sort of played basketball, sort of played pool, went swimming. basically nothing you cant do in singapore. uhh i tried kayaking, but couldnt last 4 waves. which was really not my fault, the waves were strong ><. and my cousin sitting in the back was being the rudder (i.e. not paddling) i dont know what he should have been doing, maybe he was right, so i wont comment lol.

there were quite alot of singaporeans. oh right it was my family, my cousins family, and 2 of their cousins on the other side, who were girls in primary school. which prompted my sister to join them and engage in mildly irritating girly behaviour. but i digress. anyway there were quite alot of singaporeans. so one afternoon i was lying around in the pool, being extremely sianed. my head was on the ledge thing, as i am curiously unable to float without moving. umm it was quite near the corner of the pool. so in comes this little girl and her father. and shes really cute and all. i mean she had dinosaur toys. now who couldnt like girls with dinosaur toys. shes about 3 or 4 i think. then they start playing near me. so i catch snippets of conversation between them.
'but im scared' quoth the girl
'its okay, just urine in the pool, no one will know' replies the father.
'its only a little bit, the pool so big' or something like that, he continues.
'so no one will know because theres just a little bit?' or something like that, repeats the girl, like some brainwashed zombie.
at this point i start getting freaked out and get up to lie around on a different ledge of the pool. thankfully the girl was civic minded. and they left the pool, and the father came back, and the girl came back later with her mother. so i assume(i hope) she did not pollute the pool. at least i didnt see anything when i looked underwater after they left =/

in addition, my brothers...exploits were rather interesting. right well i have discovered he enjoys pretending to be a desperado, or really is a desperado(lol but arent we all).

also, happy birthday to my brother, on the 17th, this is two days overdue. also around this time is..my wallets anniversary ^^. no present for my brother this year though. yes i can be very vengeful. though it was more sloth than anything that accounts for his lack of present from me.

and uhh after the trip my cousins stayed over till..today. which accounts for how late this post is coming. and since they slept in the comp area the aircon has not been switched off in 48 hours.

okay next post.

Screw this forget this

It seems that every blog must have some entry with song lyrics somewhere along the way. oh very well, heres my first. yes i have nothing better to do lol. it was in the '98 grammy nominees cd, but wasnt a nominee. a performance i think. its older than that lol, but so what.

Silver Springs-Fleetwood Mac

You could be my silver springs
Blue green colors flashin
I would be your only dream
Your shining autumn, ocean crashing
And did you say she was pretty
And did you say that she loves you
Baby, I dont wanna know

Ill begin not to love you
Turn around, see me runnin
Ill say I loved you years ago
Tell myself you never loved me, no
And did you say she was pretty
And did you say that she loves you
Baby, I dont wanna know
Oh, no
And can you tell me was it worth it
Really, I dont wanna know

Time casts a spell on you, but you wont forget me
I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me

Time casts a spell on you, but you wont forget me
I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me
Ill follow you down til the sound of my voice will haunt you
Youll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you
(3x)

You could be my silver springs
My blue green colors flashin
(btw the vocalist is supposed to be female)

the funny thing is you would never guess what the song was about if given the tune alone. took me awhile before i did oO. they say its a revenge song(which would suggest malice), but i duno lol.

on another note, i had a strange dream today (tuesday morning, 12 dec). or i might have been half-dreaming, cos i can remember it. i was dreaming..of dates. and i can remember the numbers hanging in the middle of a white space.
'11/11/11. thats a nice date. not too far away either'
'oh wait. its december..'
'12/12/12.'
'easy to remember..'
then i woke up. and remembered it was the birthday of an old acquaintance. not like i did anything about it =/.

bah. dwelling on the past is for lame people whose presents(??) are empty and whose futures hold no promise. haha okay i really shouldnt be doing this.(actually im not, not really)mayhap i shall angst further/discuss this towards the end of the year, which would be a more appropriate time.

today was the first day of the hols i actually thought myself some sad case. for spending 5 hrs on the comp straight -.- not total, straight. from 2-7. i was even tracing beginnings of peoples blogs (not like many peoples blogs have been around for very long). cant say it was unrewarding though. wangtings old anecdotes/quotes ftw. (haha i was never a big fan of quotes and all. but a year or two after the recording its a little different =/). and you can see how peoples blogging styles change.

yes i know. very sad. it looks like i wont get down to reading waterland(graham swift), the book being due tmr. the first 20 pages were boring, and thats about as far as i got. i suppose i find history unappealing. the only reason i borrowed it actually was because the library had none of the very few books i was looking for, and it was shortlisted for the man booker prize. damn i really need to develop my own...tastes? but whatever, going off day after tmr/tmr/14th. club med bintan. yay sea sports my favourite? lol okay at least its a break. from pointless activities. uhh lol no i am not going to turn into some angsty depressed..thing. just needed/wanted to let some out i guess. well. i shall now retreat to my sheets.

(10, 11)/12

A Wedding
so yesterday was my cousins wedding, known to my sister and younger cousins as Giant, because hes 196. tea ceremony in the morning, and come evening i stepped into the exact same room as the one used for grad night, a little more than a year ago (orchard hotel, grand ballroom 3 right?=/) ahh weddings. dont they make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside(not really). but i suppose they do bring to mind repeat broadcasts of 'what i think of my love life/lives'(since you people asked for it). well weiren did sms me halfway through ;). i'll stop there lol. it could be the wedding, or it could be the wine oO. speaking of which my brother was given 30 bucks to drink like 200 ml of wine at one shot. this was by my perhaps drunk uncle, who also gave me 50 bucks to eat...broccoli. lots. of broccoli. like leftovers. there were 7 people under 18 at my table so..it was a lot of broccoli. oh well at least now i dont have to worry so much about christmas presents making me broke. speaking of which, do NOT get me christmas presents (this is just in case you were planning to). this is because you are not likely to receive any from me =(. and if i do get them i will be left feeling very very bad.

A Birthday
Happy Birthday to my dad today. this section of the post is dedicated to the only person in the family who can actually make me laugh on a regular basis (apart from myself of course), who seems to be able to make any joke or story seem funny. who almost never gets angry, who seems to be capable of working endlessly, who used to let me play neopets on his comp when my mom was out, sometimes =D. damn i didnt get him a present. again. =/

..and a funeral
and this section of the post is dedicated to the crab i loved for a few hours. sry xr. heres to herman, may he be resting in peace in a place where he does not have to have his shell painted bright yellow.

He said hes been down this road more than twice

So. events in my life (or lack of) these days.

watched Happy Feet yesterday, uhh finally? weiren says i must blog about its themes. really i wanted to talk about the plot, but given the amount of things i can say about it (quite crappy) i shall talk about the themes instead! basically i think the conservation message has been repeated enough. who the hell really cares if the world is going to end, since we all arent gonna be around for that. oh i remember when i actually was concerned about the endangered species of the world, long ago. but uhh that was long ago.

My sisters friends came over yesterday. good thing i went out soon after =p. 5 or 6 9 yr old girls in dance( i duno the significance of that but wdv) = -.-''''' anw they managed to wreck the laptop mouse. so today parents went shopping and got a new mouse. a rather expensive one at that. yay =/.

o2jam got installed in my comp while i was out yesterday. its quite fun lah ^^ i think. if a little...sleazy? feels like it thats all lol.

tomorrow would be my cousins wedding, and my other cousins 6th birthday. 11th is my dads birthday. todays the 9th already, so i guess i'll be getting the same thing for him. nothing. lol. =/

theres this cat. that has taken to sitting outside the house(actually it sometimes jumps over the fence into the side path), round the side, every weeknight at 730. then it goes miaomiaomiaomiaomiaomiaomiao. (actually there are 2 or 3 cats but only 1 goes miaomiaomiaomiaomiaomiaomiao). then my maid also goes miaomiaomiaomiaomiaomiaomiao. and uhh she throws it a drumstick bone(and i did too, twice =/) cos the miaoing is really quite cute. and we're moving out soon anw. just wants food though. <----------my love life, or the closest thing to it, for interested parties.

on the subject of moving, ive received news that we will be moving on my birthday, the date of which i shall not reveal =p. and my dad apparently gave up asking me if i needed a laptop, and told me he thinks i will, and we have no space for a computer room anyway, so i get a new laptop, and everyone has a comp! w00t. lol.

once again i would like to comment again on my dads cd collection =/. my mom was going through it today. backstreet boys, celine dion, britney spears, savage garden, lionel richie, u2, grammy awards nominees 1998 and 2001, grammy winners 1961-1981 ( why am i mentioning this i only know like one song lol), john lennon, beatles, and (older) stuff i cant remember. pity then, that most of it is vcds -.- or in the car -.-. anw i ripped the grammy nominees 1998 onto the comp(which is going to become my sisters comp[like wad on earth at this age, when i was her age...i hardly had access to the comp) today. and yes, its nice =p.

and thats almost all the stuff for the last few days. happy holidays everyone? right. didnt think so. lol. come to think of it my holidays have been...satisfactory.

Once upon a time i knew how to write fairy tales.

guess who's back. oO. from church camp. lol. my first ever =o. its quite strange i was feeling damn sian-ed when the thing started. and now im getting that post-camp/outing sian-ness(partly from my 3+ hrs of sleep last night). and i come back and find depressing entries on (almost) everyones blogs. so anyway. they say its contagious. it was a pretty normal church camp i suppose. not that i would know. currently i either dont know wad to think or cant be bothered to try thinking. hence the lack of a proper narrative/argument/wdv. and the bb campsite is pretty sucky lol. but at least they have beds. lol i was sweeping the bunk this morning. then the caretaker came in and randomly asked if my grades at school were damn good (translated from chinese) and uhh i sort of nodded (i am after all in rj oO) and he says ya i can tell this sort of thing one(or sth liddat). i didnt quite know if i should take it as a compliment or an insult (your sweeping is hopeless i think you surely must be nerdy mugger!) lol. haha dont feel like blogging anymore. maybe i'll give a longer update some other time. when and if the air/my head clears.

The narrative resumes.

boredom breeds inspiration. tonight i feel inspired to blog about today. so, my day in detail. if just to make you feel better. see now you can feel better about yours. actually today was no different from any other day, they all seem more or less the same nowadays. in fact i forgot today was wednesday until 11+ this morning, then forgot it was wednesday again, until 7+ when i checked the papers to contemplate watching pck lol.

so. (blah this is damn sad) i woke at 730, stayed in bed till 8 something, went downstairs. and i ask my maid to prepare breakfast, and she says what do you want, and i say anything, and she asks bread or noodles (the same lines every day) . so today i felt like eating noodles so i said noodles, and she asks what flavour (yes obviously its cup noodles what were u expecting lol) and i randomly point one out, and its chicken, so yea im okay with chicken. so i eat chicken flavoured cup noodles while watching tv. now in the 8 oclock hour theres seriously nothing to watch so i watched crocodile hunter diaries on animal planet, starring steve irwin (the late). during that episode they let a kangaroo die, a sea snake die (steve irwin was showing bindi sue how to identify a sea snake and took the dehydrated wrinkled dying snake and held up the tail and said look its tail is shaped like a paddle, thats how you tell its a sea snake oO), and hand carried a 170 year old tortoise that charles darwin studied to its new enclosure at the australia zoo lol.
then i got bored so i went upstairs and played maple till 9 something and played dota till 1. not worth mentioning, that.

then i went for lunch. second meal of the day yay. it was pizza. my favourite (toasted frozen pizza of course lol). but seriously its nice. so as i ate i watched the legend of zorro. that lasted till 2. then i watched the living edens on nat geo lol. todays episode was about madagascar 8-). 80 percent of species of plants and animals found on madagascar are found exclusively on madagascar. and chameleons change their colours not for the purpose of camouflage, but to communicate with other chameleons. oh and there were lemurs of course. 230 sisters piano teacher comes, so i retreat upstairs to continue watching tv. so i stop watching the nat geo show lol and switch to hbo. Eurotrip is showing halfway. and its funnier than the nat geo show =p(besides, it has some sexual content. actually so do documentaries lol so nevermind). so i watch eurotrip. while listening to my sisters piano lesson oO. okay then i go upstairs(further upstairs i mean) and played dota. hmm x-1 lycan, where x is a number i cannot remember.got 8 kills, died once, then never killed again for the next 20 something minutes. x is between 8-11 lol. right. then more maple. i levelled up. yay -.-.

oooh highlight of the day. having finished reading sweet thursday and done a lousy job of comprehending it i decided it was time to stop letting my overdue fines accumulate. so i walked to the library. could have taken the bus, but holidays imply a lack of exercise. if walking can be considered exercise that is. anyway it had just rained. and i somehow decided to wear slippers. so one thing i learnt today would be never walk long distances on wet ground in slippers while engaging in (fairly) deep thought. deep in the sense that you are absorbed in it, not to be confused with mature thought, or logical thought. dont get me wrong, thinking and walking were made for each other. well at least thinking and pacing. this belief should explain my inefficiency at completing homework. anyway, todays topic was uhh. how the truth is always corrupted. and not just because its told that way. more about the ugly side to everything oO. for example you could give alot of money to charity, and the truth is that you do want to help people, but its also because you want ur name in the papers. stuff like that. subconscious or not. lousy analogy, but wdv. and uhh something about in considering all the possibilities theres bound to be unpleasant ones popping out that u wish you never thought about. some crap like that. oh and also contemplating Fate, as usual. no seriously its damn weird. but thats not the point. the point is in my state of near-zoned out-ness i managed to almost slip (hurhur slippers) no less than 4 times and got rudely jolted out of thought(probably a good thing), got startled by a damn bicycle going over the drain cover, and forgot i had the right of way at a zebra crossing until the motorbike stopped to let me walk.

okay now the funny part(strange/amusing/both). i saw jenson at the library with his friend (20 something?) :O. ok no scandal. male friend. they was discussing something and there was a cs lewis book on the table. so i picked my books, in record time i think, then went to borrow. But. the machine wouldnt let me. cos i had fines to pay =(. i suppose the nlb isnt as dumb as i thought. so i finally exceeded the fine limit lol. having not gone to the library/paid fines for a damn long time, i went to the counter to pay -.-. but they dont accept cash. anymore. now must pay by cashcard wth. obviously i have no cashcard. but by some absurd/divine coincidence, jensons friend happens to be there lol. so uhh yea lucky me he has a cashcard. so i ended up being able to borrow books. the fines, btw, came up to $6.05 lol. i cleaned out half the guys cashcard. (of course i returned the money) lol i borrowed on beauty, following wts advice. better get started on at least looking for books for h3 -.-. and. knife of dreams, book eleven of the wheel of time. finally found it, after more than a yr. :o. haha yea, Robert Jordan. one must begin what one has started no? even if it appears to be trash lol. oh and i ended up getting a blister(i think) on the left sole and my skin on the right foot sustained mild injury from the slippers.

the rest of the day= not worth mentioning. i bet you are now making decisions at the margin, and thinking what the crap if i have to hear another bit of this pointless shit i will stop visiting this blog forever. okay so thats my average day for you. ohnoesiamexposedplsdontshootme. and im bored, so dont flame me for excessive description plskthxbai

long overdue post. anyway i think i shall stop trying to make my posts seem encrypted (intentionally or otherwise) cos after putting the last one on mental replay i realized there could be a thousand unintended interpretations. so anyway. back to typing stuff which does not stress my brain out. that much.

for today i will pretend to not be apathetic about socio-political issues. todays topic: the rising standard of living for children. so anyway. my sister got first in class. so she could get a reward. (damn i never got anything for grades =() so what did she get? a tamagotchi. okay the people who read this blog are probably not familiar with whats hip and cool among the younger generation, the future of singapore. apparently paper aluminium and plastic arent the only things that are recycled. tamagotchi is now into version 3 :o. and if in case you think my sister is plain weird, the stuff was nearly sold out at parkway (left 2 designs, singapore special editions, but my sister didnt want lol) . and at tampines isetan (tm seriously sucks on a sunday afternoon btw, reminded my why i hate crowded places) it was sold out. and there wasnt any at metro, and only got one at toys r us. anyway, my point is, kids these days have such freedom. my sister has cable tv, neopets, maple, and a tamagotchi. when i was in p3...why, i was doing homework, homework, homework, was more or less banned from tv, and in my free time i did origami and read (alot [well relatively, i used to finish all my library books within the first week, now i always return late lol][oh and they are never getting me to pay my fines]). lol okay all this was probably good for me back then. but still. they say people dont know what they have. well sometimes people dont know what they dont have. (okay i think i jacked myself there but nvm) 'what if', quoth jack nicholson,'this is as good as it gets?'

anyway. another meme. from crunch Oo. yay i guess, kills time.


1. how old did you wish you were?
havent i answered this already

2. where were you when 911 happened?
dont remember. hell i dont even know what time it happened. sleeping, i think?

3 what do you do when vending machine steals your money?
bang the machine abit, and a little cussing.

4 do you count yourself kind?
No?

5 if you had to get a tatoo, where would it be?
hm i duno, somewhere on my forearm. i dont think anyone gets it there though.

6 if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
hmm french i guess. il n'y a pas de mouches sur la grandmere<---does anyone know wad this means. 7 do you know your neighbours?
haha no.

8 what do you consider a vacation?
school with no homework.

9 do you follow your horoscope?
i read it sometimes, its in life =/

10 would you move for the person you love?
depends. oO

11 are you touchy feely?
not well acquainted with the term, but i think the answer should be a no lol.

12 do you believe that opposites attract?
hmm nope. not really.

13 dream job?
Jobless. lol.

15 favorite place to go on weekends?
Computer room

16 showers or baths?
showers..

17 do you paint your nails?
wth?

18 do you trust people easily?
dont think so. but i dont know really.

19 what are your phobias?
i fear foolishness, but it seems to hit me so very often.

20 do you want kids?
hmm yea.

21 do you keep a handwritten journal?
No.

22 where would you rather be right now?
on a mostly deserted beach. ^o)

23 who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
gee, i duno. define 'warm and fuzzy'.

24 heavy or light sleeper?
Light

25 are you paranoid?
Oh yes.

26 are you impatient?
depends, i guess i am with some people.

27 who can you relate to?
apart from myself?

28 how do you feel about interracial couples?
Oh i am perfectly all right with them. *winks at lk/nava*

29 have you been burned by love?
Uhhh. no. do they seriously expect people to take this seriously lol.

30 what's your favorite pick-up line?
'your eyes are like two crystal clear pools of blue'. 'theyre brown..'. 'your eyes are like two crystal clear pools of....mud!' - drake and josh oO

31 what's your main ringtone on your mobile?
silent. damn repititive questions.

32 what were you doing at midnight last night?
going to sleep.

33 what did the last text on your cellphone say?
it was philana (writers ccal) asking everyone to write an article about orienation by next tuesday. -.-. i dont remmeber the exat words and my phone is downstairs so.

34 whose bed did you sleep in last?
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.xinruis? together with like 4 other ppl =D. damn long ago.

35 what color shirt are you wearing?
guess what, tioman trip shirt! its...greyish.

36 most recent movie you watched?
lol. monster house -.-

37 name three things you have on you at all times.
various clothes. seriously theres nothing else.

38 what color are your bedsheets?
umm. yellowish i think.

39 how much cash do you have on you right now?
less than 10 in my wallet.

40 what is your favorite part of the chicken?
drumstick lol. yea i know, spoilt brat.


41 what's your favorite town/city?
ang mo kio new town! never been there.

42 i cant wait till...?
the last question

43 what did you have for dinner last night?
rice...with stuff. chicken wing, fried prawsn in flour, wdv u call it, fish, and vegetables.

44 do you own a gun?
wont bother.

45 what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
its between water and milk and i dislike milk.


46 where do you think you'll be in 10 years time?
zz im not psychic.this sounds alot like albars essay. i forgot what i wrote for that one.

47 last thing you ate?
vegetables in my soup =/

48 what songs do you sing in the toilet?
oh all sorts. largely depends on what i hear on the radio just before that. but my personal favourite has got to be twinkle twinkle little star.

49 last thing that made you laugh?
honestly i manage to make myself laugh alot, so i cant remember. but it definitely wasnt anything to do with this.

50 worst injury you've ever had?
i duno, probably the leetle cut around my eyebrow, which was the only time i actually had stitches.

51 does someone have a crush on you?
(agrees with crunch) would i know?

52 what's your favorite candy?
eye candy? lol. seriously, i dont have favourite candy -.-

53 what song do you want played at your funeral?
i'll decide on my funeral playlist when its abit nearer thanks.

54 four random people to do this?
lol everyone can do it =/

lol ok i know my answers suck and all, but im seriously falling asleep.

long overdue post. anyway i think i shall stop trying to make my posts seem encrypted (intentionally or otherwise) cos after putting the last one on mental replay i realized there could be a thousand unintended interpretations. so anyway. back to typing stuff which does not stress my brain out. that much.

for today i will pretend to not be apathetic about socio-political issues. todays topic: the rising standard of living for children. so anyway. my sister got first in class. so she could get a reward. (damn i never got anything for grades =() so what did she get? a tamagotchi. okay the people who read this blog are probably not familiar with whats hip and cool among the younger generation, the future of singapore. apparently paper aluminium and plastic arent the only things that are recycled. tamagotchi is now into version 3 :o. and if in case you think my sister is plain weird, the stuff was nearly sold out at parkway (left 2 designs, singapore special editions, but my sister didnt want lol) . and at tampines isetan (tm seriously sucks on a sunday afternoon btw, reminded my why i hate crowded places) it was sold out. and there wasnt any at metro, and only got one at toys r us. anyway, my point is, kids these days have such freedom. my sister has cable tv, neopets, maple, and a tamagotchi. when i was in p3...why, i was doing homework, homework, homework, was more or less banned from tv, and in my free time i did origami and read (alot [well relatively, i used to finish all my library books within the first week, now i always return late lol][oh and they are never getting me to pay my fines]). lol okay all this was probably good for me back then. but still. they say people dont know what they have. well sometimes people dont know what they dont have. (okay i think i jacked myself there but nvm) 'what if', quoth jack nicholson,'this is as good as it gets?'

anyway. another meme. from crunch Oo. yay i guess, kills time.


1. how old did you wish you were?
havent i answered this already

2. where were you when 911 happened?
dont remember. hell i dont even know what time it happened. sleeping, i think?

3 what do you do when vending machine steals your money?
bang the machine abit, and a little cussing.

4 do you count yourself kind?
No?

5 if you had to get a tatoo, where would it be?
hm i duno, somewhere on my forearm. i dont think anyone gets it there though.

6 if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
hmm french i guess. il n'y a pas de mouches sur la grandmere<---does anyone know wad this means.

7 do you know your neighbours?
haha no.

8 what do you consider a vacation?
school with no homework.

9 do you follow your horoscope?
i read it sometimes, its in life =/

10 would you move for the person you love?
depends. oO

11 are you touchy feely?
not well acquainted with the term, but i think the answer should be a no lol.

12 do you believe that opposites attract?
hmm nope. not really.

13 dream job?
Jobless. lol.

15 favorite place to go on weekends?
Computer room

16 showers or baths?
showers..

17 do you paint your nails?
wth?

18 do you trust people easily?
dont think so. but i dont know really.

19 what are your phobias?
i fear foolishness, but it seems to hit me so very often.

20 do you want kids?
hmm yea.

21 do you keep a handwritten journal?
No.

22 where would you rather be right now?
on a mostly deserted beach. ^o)

23 who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
gee, i duno. define 'warm and fuzzy'.

24 heavy or light sleeper?
Light

25 are you paranoid?
Oh yes.

26 are you impatient?
depends, i guess i am with some people.

27 who can you relate to?
apart from myself?

28 how do you feel about interracial couples?
Oh i am perfectly all right with them. *winks at lk/nava*

29 have you been burned by love?
Uhhh. no. do they seriously expect people to take this seriously lol.

30 what's your favorite pick-up line?
'your eyes are like two crystal clear pools of blue'. 'theyre brown..'. 'your eyes are like two crystal clear pools of....mud!' - drake and josh oO

31 what's your main ringtone on your mobile?
silent. damn repititive questions.

32 what were you doing at midnight last night?
going to sleep.

33 what did the last text on your cellphone say?
it was philana (writers ccal) asking everyone to write an article about orienation by next tuesday. -.-. i dont remmeber the exat words and my phone is downstairs so.

34 whose bed did you sleep in last?
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.xinruis? together with like 4 other ppl =D. damn long ago.

35 what color shirt are you wearing?
guess what, tioman trip shirt! its...greyish.

36 most recent movie you watched?
lol. monster house -.-

37 name three things you have on you at all times.
various clothes. seriously theres nothing else.

38 what color are your bedsheets?
umm. yellowish i think.

39 how much cash do you have on you right now?
less than 10 in my wallet.

40 what is your favorite part of the chicken?
drumstick lol. yea i know, spoilt brat.


41 what's your favorite town/city?
ang mo kio new town! never been there.

42 i cant wait till...?
the last question

43 what did you have for dinner last night?
rice...with stuff. chicken wing, fried prawsn in flour, wdv u call it, fish, and vegetables.

44 do you own a gun?
wont bother.

45 what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
its between water and milk and i dislike milk.


46 where do you think you'll be in 10 years time?
zz im not psychic.this sounds alot like albars essay. i forgot what i wrote for that one.

47 last thing you ate?
vegetables in my soup =/

48 what songs do you sing in the toilet?
oh all sorts. largely depends on what i hear on the radio just before that. but my personal favourite has got to be twinkle twinkle little star.

49 last thing that made you laugh?
honestly i manage to make myself laugh alot, so i cant remember. but it definitely wasnt anything to do with this.

50 worst injury you've ever had?
i duno, probably the leetle cut around my eyebrow, which was the only time i actually had stitches.

51 does someone have a crush on you?
(agrees with crunch) would i know?

52 what's your favorite candy?
eye candy? lol. seriously, i dont have favourite candy -.-

53 what song do you want played at your funeral?
i'll decide on my funeral playlist when its abit nearer thanks.

54 four random people to do this?
lol everyone can do it =/

lol ok i know my answers suck and all, but im seriously falling asleep.

Shhhh was what i said

---Hypothesis---

methinks faith is what we all need. yea well i guess i need it too. faith in self, and faith in..other people. and when either proves to be misplaced, faith in God. (the last i think im starting to have less trouble with). faith is defined by the bible: --1Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen-- Hebrews 11 (i dont know wad version, i got it off the net, my bible being downstairs, and google being far nearer). hard? yea course its hard.

then theres always gravity, lurking, somewhere. if faith is the thesis, gravity is the anti-thesis. it says, you cant do it, youre too weak, youre basically shit, dont do it, its only gonna end in failure (damn im sounding like a self-help book). of course no one calls it gravity but me, and if you are searching for the origin of my definition, look in the archives, and observe the date, its not a very pleasant thing to be explaining. i believe there was an amateur attempt at something vaguely poetic going on in my head that day, something like, for every spark of light in the night sky, desperately seeking heaven, theres gravity to pull it down, and it never does get there, and it explodes in a brilliant burst of colour and disintegrates into little sparks, and people go wow, and they call it fireworks, but hey, this is an era where people take pleasure in everyone elses pain is it not. only birds defy gravity. planes....yea well they consume large amounts of fuel. not natural =/. not that im complaining.

ahh damn im saying too much. i must be getting weak (something for another day, perhaps). anyway. they can fight and fight, and theyll go on fighting, and no one will win, not for some time anyway. who's to say which one should? there is such a thing as misplaced faith, after all. oh and unfounded sometimes something comes along and banishes gravity to hell, where it came from. or it might screw faith into the clouds where it belongs. course its only temporary. oh and sometimes, sometimes. something comes along, heaven-sent mayhap, and blows the confusion to oblivion, where it should be, or at least something like that, for a few hours, perhaps, of bliss. it is, after all, all in the mind. then the timing of it all amazes you, and so does the...knowing, for a moment.

As is my entire theory. which can either be common knowledge, which means i am merely rephrasing the obvious, or just uhh crap lol. holidays are prime time for mosquito breeding. i dont believe i speak from much experience, so the above is mostly insubstantial. and when one day i am about to shut down the blog and browse through all the archives i'll come back and wonder about the point of the above, which i admit i do not know, and think wtf this post is full of shit. (the last sentence was like a time capsule, ya. how exciting) ha, but i guess i should have more faith.

-page break, or maybe you should take an eye break, listen to moh now-

---The Alternative would not be something i could Live with---

part 2 baby. so yesterday i went to vivocity to watch Monster House( in 3d!) with wr and js basically i saw no point to the show, and the cinema was 90% empty. seriously it was just us and 4 other rj ppl and some pri sch kids and some middle-aged woman sitting beside me who kept going 'uh oh' and 'oh' in some hongkong/taiwan/china accent. who came with....some 60 something year old woman? i think they thought it was a horror show or something. then went shopping, not that i bought anything, saw quite a few people, etc lol.

most drama, in my experience, is self-created, subconsciously or otherwise. hmm although if you were to purposely stay out of trouble then life would be boring and go nowhere. still, i dont really believe in creating drama. anyway, some choices lead to drama, and they're ones that you probably need to make, so that path you'll have to take, and thats the other side of the argument i guess. but thats something for another day. or maybe its best not to even try. the following was drama in my path.

anyway fine i have to boast. lol. so yesterday i was walking home, and as i walked along the...path at the side of the house, which is beside a drain-canal-like thing, i chanced upon a bird on the floor. it was a dove i think, except it was green, and smaller than your average pigeon. never before seen in singapore, for me at least. and it was lying on its back. injured =/. it was kinda..lame. couldnt walk, couldnt fly too well. and there were..crows and mynahs around. this was around my side gate. so i call my maid over, and she kinda makes some comments that arent much help, and we approach the thing and it manages to fly...into the drain =/ and then it decides to lie there. the canal/drain, btw is pretty big. anw the crows were like perched on the fence opposite and cawing most ominously, so what else was there to be done, but ask my maid for a towel, and go down into the mostly-dry drain. anyway it couldnt really move, but could fly when i tried to pick it up. very short distances. so me, being afraid of flapping wings, did not catch it. instead my neighbours granddaughter florence, who happened to be at my house..playing with my sister (shes in s2..ithink) or something, decided to join the campaign, and uhh somehow she could catch it and i couldnt. so anyway i had it in the towel( did i say towel i mean floorcloth lol) in my hands but i had no idea what to do with it. was thinking of walking to the nearest vet, but...i duno. on closer observation its throat had a gaping hole and there was some spherical object sticking out of it, and i could glimpse the inside. uhh anyway it was quite gross. ( that, however, only struck me this morning). so i was walking out when florence came and said something like, consult the fruit stall uncle, which i had at that point in time just passed. so he says yang bu huo le, and something about bird flu, and points to the grass patch next to his shop, and says put it there ba (in chinese). so i did =/, and left it there(there was blood on the towel, i mean floorcloth), and i dont know whats become of it (i thought the crows wouldnt be able to get to it there). but according to florence whos grandfathers house is 2 houses away from the fruit stall its gone now so...i duno lol. Rest In Peace then, i hope. still, i duno if i would have even tried if it was a crow and not some cute ass pigeon/dove. moral of the story? i duno, at least i tried...and possibly saved it from the indignity of getting screwed by crows. though i dont think it might have cared much for indignity, cos those wounds must have freaking hurt. yea so...rip. that was one bloody long paragraph, arent you glad you took that eyebreak.

point of me mentioning all this? seriously, its partly to brag about how nice i am. haha im not kidding =/. it is a rather interesting story for myself anyway.
'if you're lost, run around like a headless chicken all you want, just dont scream, dont make a sound. that way, they'll say you're mysterious, brooding, and alot of things, but nothing negative ;)'. haha crap i spent 2 hrs 45 minutes typing this. waste of time =/.

okay so i got tagged by wt. =/. here goes then.

These are supposedly 30 questions that no one would EVER think to ask. Answer them with what comes to mind first.


1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
wow my hair has a left parting. or maybe it was wow so handsome. i duno lol.


2. What will you be thinking about at this time tomorrow?
i predict that i will either be playing maple or pokemon or watching tv, so i wont be thinking.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
thats not a fair question since i've seen both xinrui and wangtings answers before i could reach my own.

4. Favorite planet?
pluto. sympathy vote.


5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
my mum and no i do not intentionally dao her calls ^^


6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
silent. i've heard that people judge other people by their ringtones. mostly all ringtones do is attract criticism. besides my choice is limited to nokia's default ringtones lol.


7. What shirt are you wearing?
tioman trip shirt. which happens to make up a third of the shirts i wear at home.

8. Do you "label" yourself?
whatever for.


9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
Nike. which would probably indicate that i lack originality of opinion.


10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright. extremely tall windows pls. lol.


11. What do you think about the person who took this survey?
uhh wangting. he's...wangting. lol.

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you choose?
the one nearer the window.


13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
technically its this morning? anyway. i was sleeping =/


14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile phone say?
wanna watch monster house at vivocity tmr with me and jishun? abt lunch time--wr


15. Where is your letter box?
in the wall, beside the gate? where else could it be oO.

16. What's a word that you say a lot seriously?
i dont know if seriously is meant in the serious way or the bimbotalk way. well i say 'okay' alot. in its various forms. yea im mr. everythingsokay. lol.


17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
my brother, few days ago, on msn, who happened to be sitting beside me on the (other) comp, and was probably feeling supremely bored.


18. Last furry thing you touched?
...what kind of a question is this lol. well. if u wanna define 'furry thing' as 'thing with fur' then i guess it would have to be....furrything. lol...

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
oh, lots.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
firstly its the age of digital cameras and i suspect this meme has been in circulation for a very very long time. secondly i have no camera (no not even handphone camera =()


21. Favorite age you have been so far?
-agrees with wangting-. yea 16.

22. Your worst enemy ever?
meself.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
Purple Flower. hey its not my fault my sister doesnt like Red Moon Desert and Ascent.


24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
'auntie can prepare my breakfast'. lol =/


25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly,which would you take?
Fly. duhh.

26. Do you like someone?
i like most people actually. or so i would like to believe.


27. The last song you listened to?
damn. Puzzle of my Heart. Westlife. or maybe i should wait for the song to end before i answer this question lol.


28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
i dont know if this question is specific to my maid, but i'll assume its not lol. well in the first place the question is stupid, and strictly a hypothetical situation. who shoots people in singapore. besides i am quite sure by the time you notice someone was getting shot at the bullet would have already hit him. plus i would rather jump at the person and knock him out of the path of the bullet? since we are talking action movie scenes anyway. anyway. assuming the situation is actually possible. No.


29. If you could punch 1 person in the face who's in your life right now, who would it be?
no one.-mildly insulting comment deleted-.


30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
the cabinet drawer thingy. and some cable which my foot is on.

lol okay. i tag..everyone who's at least half as bored as i am.

T(AT)

In more ways than two. Ha. titular genius. wdv that means. anyway been wanting to blog for quite some time. wanted to blog about The Accidental, which i read, after wangtings sort-of recommendation, and reading the first chapter like long ago. so despite my half-crazed thoughts of blogging something half-psychotic in accordance with the narrative tone of the book, which was at that time stuck in my head, i wont. instead all i will say is Go Read It.

Anyway. my bloody body clock seems to be unable to adapt to the holidays. as such i have been getting around 6 hours of sleep. for example on pw op day i woke up at 530. before going back to sleep for 10 minute intervals or something. today was another 530 day, but managed to go back to sleep, till seven. which is still abnormal for a saturday, and also considering my completely wearing myself out the last 2 days. maybe it was the dream, which was seriously weird, but provided abit of relief. well, you were in it.
You were on the floor. the floor! Im tired. course you are. I have my principles. Yes, they are tiring are they not. I have my reasons; have you forgotten. I should. Inadequacy, You say. yeah well maybe. You dont understand me, You cry, to no one in particular. Ah cut your emo-angst.I dont know; dont know; dont know. Ha; sorry, but i'll have to go with you on that one. uhh right. anyway You werent in my dream. And well no that wasnt the dream. anyway i woke up at 7 again and found my hair messier than it had been in ages(actually i think that had something to do with my sleeping with my hair wet). so much for half-psychotic paragraphs.

Why is always the most important question. once you got that sorted out, the rest is a-okay, smooth sailing, merry christmas, send a bouquet, put a s(t)ock(ing) in it. more or less. why did you? why would you? why were you? why do this? why not? why wonder why, when you you know youre not going to get an answer (i think too much)? still You do it, over and over, but whatever_, Time After Time. wooo half-psychotic paragraph once more.

lol okay anyway. no im not going crazy/committing suicide/depressed/lovesick/wdv. why not? uhh next paragraph. anyway past few days have been rather busy. okay recap. thursday. well. i am rather proud of myself for having done op, buying herman (and unecessary tupperware), rushing home to chiong InR in 2 hours, gone out again, lanning till 11, and not having dropped dead. dinner was...pretty good? i mean we did as best as circumstance would allow =/. and hey at least i managed to keep herman alive ^^. friday, was out the whole day, and i am rather proud of myself for not having dropped dead. still. vadis play was...alright i guess. was observing this old angmoh couple at the corner. they never laughed, not once. and after vadi came out i saw their seats empty. but i guess thats just my problem, i give too much shit about what people think.

Yay and so i get to today. went on the doulos, which, for the ignorant, is a missionary ship (if thats the proper phrase for it) that sails the world. basically i was half-conned into going. you see there was an announcement in church last week for people to take care of the u-12s i.e. pri sch chillun, who were going on a tour of the ship. but. sometimes the memory takes shortcuts. like, skips a few bits of detail. so i completely forgot about that, and when jianhorng (my dg leader, for the ignorant) smsed me if i was available to go, i felt obliged to, thinking everyone else would be there. okay anyway so ended up being a junior caretaker or something like that. cos adults outnumber youths, adults+youths outnumber children. so uhh. yeah.not like i did much. so the ship was pretty boring, seeing how the less-than-30-minute tour was targetted at children. but yea well. interesting to note how each of them on board must have some fascinating story to tell. they could compile stuff into a journal, and put it in the bookshop, and i would buy that, cos the bookstores nothing much imo =/. haha they were playing music in the bookstore. uhh they played Still ( i think thats what its called).how apt that it should be raining everywhere. and yeah theres not that much shelter around.to cut a long story short, i got wet. yay one of the reasons why i dont change hairstyle. to look upon my reflection in the mirror when my hair is rain soaked. lol! anyway ended up laughing quite deliriously. and i was happy for the next few hours.

and so ends my very long post. and whassup with the inefficiency. for the record, its 1:08 now. below should be the time i started typing. and uhh in case i sound half-crazed, this(actually its probably just the half-psychotic paragraphs) is what you get from pacing round church while staring at the floor, for half an hour? in circles no less. if i do, well screw tat lol. then again, nvm.

[Right. so im sort of editing a little. woke up at 630 today i.e. the next morning/the same morning. how nice 5 hrs of sleep. =.=. sucks that blog posts never turn out the way i want them to. and uhh tell me if you think youve figured out all the possible interpretations of the title ^^]

I dont believe we've been introduced proper.

i've nothing to do, and weiren requests i blog. about myself. very well, your wish is my command. but i must add that the information presented in this post may not be reliable or accurate, as the first and most important thing about myself(and everyone else) is that i dont know myself, or dont want to, or dont want to think about it. i think. ugh, this is gonna be dry.

Hi, my name is. im not telling u my name. in case the mob comes looking for me one day, it would make it harder to trace my name through my blog. muahaha. although i dont think the mob visits my blog, and the tagboard should be sufficient for uncovering my name.

a guy who wasnt really funny once said, 'if you fail miserably at being funny, well, thats as good as being funny'. and in case you havent discovered by now, i am a believer of this principle. well thats one thing about me. ...And i am unable to think of any more 'things' about me. so, on to the next section. strengths and weaknesses! yeah, like them CLE pieces of paper. except i was never able to fill one up properly. so what makes me think i can do it now.

Weaknesses first. as i see them.
1) I worry too much. insecurity, paranoia, whatever you want to call it. all of it. you get my drift.
2) All thought and no action, sloth, procrastination. whatever you want to call it. all of it. you get my drift.
3) Highly irritable. with some people, anyway. which probably makes it worse. and especially at home.
4) Indecision. which is probably linked to the first two. irresolution due to ease of influence from external opinion, and lack of (belief in?) own.
5) Pride. is a bad thing. pride is not just self-belief, its believing oneself to be superior to almost everyone else. inflated ego larger than the Arizona desert. got burst somewhere along the way, i think. now airs being pumped into it again.

Strengths. maybe.
1) Pride. pride is also the refusal to acknowledge most other people as superior. and if you think ur gonna make me do something i dont like doing/feel no obligation to do without me cursing u secretly..
2) Self-sufficiency.[ linked to (1), and does not apply to the more relevant aspects of life, like uhh cooking and washing ^^. ] well for now anyway. lol maybe its cos i dont have many needs/preferences. wants are the more-than-sufficient. the lamers at Cactus Mineral Water came up with a rather intelligent slogan for their brand of air minuman. Life goes on, it says. holy sheet im quoting mineral water bottles now.
3) Modesty? lol. the futile fight against the ego. and uhh i think anyone claiming to be modest is highly ironic, and basically jacks himself.

I would like to believe that..(complete the sentence). Hope.
1) I have talents(i cant decide if this should be a fullstop or exclamation mark) Which makes people feel useful/better about themselves. huh. lit, some might believe. (lol shuttup not a reference to prakash). origami? i duno i was watching an origami video(youtube does have everything) of something the other day, and i thought mine looked nicer =/. probably sucky resolution though. DotA? hardly, lol. its a bloody rat race out there.
2) things will turn out for the better. eventually. without me having to do much. lol this is redundant, who doesnt. but i seriously do.
3) the last 17 years of my life have been more interesting/dramatic than the average person. but the past 5 years have taught me that everyone has their own stories.
4) anyone can do anything, or at least i can, with enough time and on pure willpower. that my potential is limitless.
5) People cant be defined by making long lists of what they did and what they like and what i have just done, cause theres a whole lot more. and people change. not a list, an essence. ha. well. what i would like to believe.

Amendments: add 'inefficiency' to weaknesses. its been more than an hour since i started. Also add 'does not divulge personal information easily' to...whichever of the three u might find the most appropriate. the uses of mystery.

and thats enough information for today lol. hopefully this entry might be of some use to you. and if you thought it was more full of shit than newater before the filtration stage (just had to put that somewhere), as some part of me secretly believes, well too bad.

Border than thou

title says it all. by experimenting with form, i also prove just how bored i am. having nothing much to blog about, its back to the ol' narrative for the day. so this morning i woke up. at 5. then mugged chem. then brushed my teeth. then wdv skip this. then collected results slip. then chem spa. then slacked around for abit. then went to eat lunch with jenson wr jishun. then met raja, and since there was time before movie started we stoned at macs and watched raja eat.

anyway. i think the bishan gay leads a very interesting life, observing ri/rj/other school students behind that newspaper and pervy smile. i mean obviously students are more interesting to observe than adults. i suppose he followed the ri ppls activities only because there was not much alternative. rj people are a hell lot more interesting to observe. in my opinion. i bet if u sat around for long enough something highly interesting is bound to happen. plus macs is a prime spot for flaming people that walk by out of earshot. and sourcing for gossip material. in a completely random and unrelated mention, today, among other people, crunch and nelson were spotted.

okayyyy. on to other things. watched death note. it was pretty cool i guess, what with prettybois masquerading as cooliobois. okay that is not a true reflection of the show, its just another symptom of boredom. it was pretty cool. but when someone keeps telling u something is cool, it doesnt become that cool anymore. and uhh jenson kept hitting me and saying 'so exciting'. =/. in addition, why does it not feel as impressive as hollywood films, apart from the crappy cgi.

in accordance with albars teachings, i have been making a conscious effort to observe random people on the trains. course usually it doesnt yield much. and people are usually forgotten. but. an interesting scenario today. and i shall attempt to, using my limited descriptive skills, to...describe it. ok. so im standing at my usual spot, that is to say, the area around the doors that dont open except at city hall/braddell. the one closest to the linkage between the carriages. so i could see that area, where people go to make out -.- so at the edge of that area, theres a woman leaning her side against the wall(arms folded), facing outwards, looking extremely stoned. dressed like shes going to supermarket or something (grey shorts, pink flip flops, dyed hair i think, quite unnoticeable). looks 30 something, probably 20 something. a little plump, short. short relative to the 2 standing behind her that is =/. tall (big is more appropriate) guy and tall girl, with hair thats dyed to a larger extent(blonde at that). now these people look 20 something. well they arent making out, but theres physical contact involved. so for awhile i was thinking, the poor ladys probably thinking, wth i wish they would pick a better spot than less than a metre behind me. but. then the guy(yes the guy) taps her shoulder(for the sake of it?), and she turns behind and engages in a little conversation with the two, smiling rather unconvincingly (unable to describe objectively). then she turns back around and resumes her staring into space with a tinge of buay song-ness. (see previous bracket) right. so she knew them. draw ur own inferences/conclusions please. now if one day i am ever caught in a situation like that remind me to slap myself or something.

lol that was exceedingly unecessarily long. but the highlight of the day was obviously the walk home in the storm, which can be themed 'all or nothing'. firstly the weather pattern seems to have been following this trend of late. they give u a storm, or they give u much heat. secondly this applies to umbrellas. either u bring the huge walking stick umbrellas, which provide considerable protection from most storms, or dont bring any at all, and wait for the damn rain to stop. i mean yeah you'll still be walking in water half the height of your shoe, but at least u wont get ur pants soaked to knee level. bringing puny little umbrellas that the rain takes not into consideration doesnt work very well. yeah so that more or less sums up my little adventure in the rain, and events for the day. though i think i might drown in exaggerated self-pity before i drown in the rain.

Rootine

Holidays are here. sort of anw. Yay. tis the season to be abusing. Aircon in comp room is now on something like 16 hrs a day, aircon in room is on for....the rest of the time. not long before something screws up. comp is on as long as aircon in comp room is on, if not longer. pity my parents =/. eyes are getting screwed too. that red streak that cuts through the center of each eyeball is back. could be pretty cool, if it didnt hurt lol. brain is also suffering from lack of activity(non-mental activity that is), resulting in it going into overdrive. the voice in there refuses to stop blabbering. only another 2 months to go. maybe i should pick up a new skill. cross-stitching sounds really fun.
then theres the issue of ego, which seems to have died down. sorry but i simply have to say my piece. oops did i say ego, i meant elitism. on second thought maybe i shant say my piece. im not elitist, but this shit is starting me on the road to it.
6.38 is out, and on this i shall have to say my piece. put very simply, its gay. especially the PoM(PoM).
my grades, are maths A, gp B, chem B, lit C, econs D. this is what i get for following everyone else and taking econs lol. or maybe. this is what i get for not being able to live with that.
yay pw op dry run 2 tmr, spa on wednesday, the real deal next week. the schools notion of holidays is a little weird. haha yea im one of those whiners who complain both ways..

Just another 'oh how quickly time has passed' entry

okay so technically school is over. of course theres still 2 really exciting a lvl exams coming up. everyones favourite subjects at that. but hey, its supposed to be over. so as the academic year comes to an abrupt, boring, and most unfitting end, We shall take some time to reflect on the past year of school. damn i want to do another 'oh how quickly time has passed' thing before new year, so hard to split content lol.

hmm actually i dont have much to reflect on, as most of the year was spent...half alive. hence i cannot recall much. sec 4 i still could remember, to some extent, the occurences of the day, like some joylim joke, or what huang yuting did for physics (well thats not too hard really, its always the same). and i could go to school and laugh my ass off the whole day and go home and play dota the whole day. now, i duno, i think my brain is half frozen, fuse is half its old length. and tired. lol. not the good kind of tired, more like the bored kind of tired. but whats there to be done. even rest isnt restful (was it ever =/). when ur not working, ur haunted by your thoughts, or some random game that probably stresses ur brain out more than when doing work. dreamless sleep is precious =/.

bah im falling asleep. at 1030. anw so its goodbye j1, goodbye rest, goodbye free time, goodbye keith wong =/, goodbye OA(for now). hello j2, hello A levels, hello looking for universities, hello worrying about scholarships, hello helllotofwork. looks kinda bleak from where im standing. but oh well. who knows how it'll turn out. (damn this is really brief)

Teach less learn...what?

-between the camps of 'express yourself'(essential for healthy growth) and 'dont give yourself away'(they'll know your every weakness), the rest were just left to wonder.-quoteworthy? lol.

back when they were trying to get everyone enthusiastic about keeping diaries, i dont believe i ever thought of keeping one. firstly it was gay, secondly maybe writing to yourself seemed a little sad. and hinted at/would result in a loss of sanity. so now i have a blog, where content is regulated. though as exemplified by this paragraph that doesnt really seem to be very effective.

anw yesterday went church for p6 seminar. some people are under the impression that i went to macritchie to run/look at monkeys =) (identities hidden). where once again my social skills failed me, and 'nevermind' and 'its okay' once again win the prize for most frequently used phrases. and 'the same' won the prize for most common response (though its a fairly original one, if i may add). wasnt much help either =p. oh well. some time, perhaps.

but thats not the point. so after dinner there was some talk for parents of p6 kids, on life in secondary school. and there was some panel of parents who came up to answer FAQs on how they treat/discipline/wdv their children. so once again i was reminded of how easy we have it. though most of the time i appreciate the freedom to stayover, stay up, stay out, stay in front of the comp with near zero nagging, near zero information required, think they let go too early lol. i still have no idea why everything was suddenly 'allowed'.

okay i think ive said enough/too much. despite the length of the post. -end mild angst- right this post probably breaks the record for least number of '=/'s used. zero!

Confessions #2

i vaguely remember having confessions #1 as a title before, not sure though.
okay so this morning i was going downstairs for breakfast and my sister asks me to go look in the backyard. and theres a yellow basket, upside down. anw my maids standing around, and she asks me if i knew what it was, and she opens the basket, and lo and behold, theres a...furry thing! anw its either a hamster or guinea pig, i dont know which =/. cutest thing i saw all day=p.apparently my maid woke up to find it outside her door(her rooms in the backyard, and yes she has a proper room -.-) uhh anw thats not the end of the story. so we were discussing wad to put it in, and went to look for a box, and i got back to the backyard, and the thing got out of the basket =/. so i panic, slightly. and try to throw the basket back over the furrything(assume its a guinea pig). but miss. then my maid comes, and she starts screaming+laughing. if u can picture that, and she tries to throw the basket again, but misses, even worse and the furrything (i think its a better name than guinea pig) starts panicking, and running around, and slips out the backgate, and gets cornered by me my maid my neighbour (some old lady) and her maid. and uhh it starts...hissing is the best way to describe it probably. and uhh my maids asking me to catch it =/ so i sorta stick out my hand, and it runs to the drain, and somehow slips through the grille. and gets away. however, that was my fault =////. see it took some time to wiggle through, and i could have grabbed its hind legs and yanked, but its head was through already, and i thought it might a) get permanent brain damage, or b) bite me and give me some strange disease. well okay so no1 would go into the drain to retrieve it. and thats all there is to it. i was feeling quite alright, until my sister asked my dad ( who had been spectating) what would happen to it,and he said the cats would get it =/. ouch. failed reflexes+ brains+ guts. and uhh an after school search (12 hrs later, yea. well my sister was hanging around in the backyard, insisting she was there to scare the cats away, for fun.=PP) yielded no results.
so uhhh. if the cats got you, RIP, furrything =/. and i shall be haunted for the rest of my life( or at least part of it). and if they didnt, maybe it will show up again randomly lol.
Also troubing is my lack of form, in dota, and everything in general. i can feeelll the weakness.
And cheer up people =/ (lol myself included i guess). havent u heard, depression is contagious.

So much for Friday the 13th

Yesterday went pretty darn well, i daresay. the only bad stuff that happened to me struck when there was a little more than an hour left of the day, and my cursor decided not to appear on the comp screen, then my monitor screwed up, then my comp hung, and hung again, and again, and again..anw to see if friday the 13th was really unlucky i waited till there was about 15 mins left to saturday the 14th, and tried it again, and uhhh it worked lol. 15 mins left cos i was falling asleep =/. apart from that, the day was...nice.

open house was actually quite fun lol. i actually like rj oO. maybe it was cos i was slacking so much. and the performances were pretty good, and Borrowed Time is obviously borrowing time to think of a new name =p (i couldnt resist saying that =/, honestly i think the names okay, except its koped from a dota skill.) lol but wdv it was nice. lol wr i wasnt kidding when i said Boston and How to save a life were songs that i like now, and accidentally in love (2 yrs ago) (ok lah i still like it lol) and wth albar couldnt recognize me =(. do i rly look that different =/. and lan was fun, after cs lol oO.

and why is tagboard screwing up (and switching to cbox doesnt solve anything), and so is msn 7.5. and lance and daryl complain i dont link them. so lance's blog can be found at www.isaiah35.blogspot.com, and daryl's blog can be found at ww.missionaryinmaking.blogspot.com (=p)

Aura

Today i got home, and my comp hanged. (its been hanging alot less this week) anyway when i switched it on again my history was gone. for firefox that is. which has never happened before. actually all my internet settings got reset. well thats for my comp. the laptop...its still there. lol how completely random.

Once upon a time, i went for adam khoos motivational workshop thingo. one of the things mentioned was that people have..auras. which are caused by their thoughts/states of mind, if i remember correctly. which go on to influence people around u. for example, if u look at a guy and think 'f*** u' or something really hard, he can..sense it and gets affected. thats according to them of course. there was an experiment to sort of prove it, but the reliability is still questionable. they also crapped about how everyone is the best of a few million sperms that swim to reach the egg (yea that same old story) which was disputed by joylim last year, cos the first few are sacrificed to break through that...i forgot wad its called that coats the egg. ok this is really random too, dont ask me why i am reminded of it cos i have no idea.

actually it had something to do with friday the thirteenth. okay i only found out/realized this friday is the day this afternoon visiting mocas blog. already i can feel the evil...aura(yes wrong usage i know) approaching, led by the most unlucky pw op on thursday. and i am reading stephen king (again). no not the dark tower, and this one is starting to creep me out. or maybe its the cover. or maybe its the thickness of the thing. lol. or, it might be because the main character is named Bobbi Anderson, mostly referred to as Anderson(which never fails to remind me of the idiot from the matrix [no, not mr anderson, smith]). and its a woman. and umm if u add or to aura u get aurora :o. ok the last one was seriously random.

in other stuff that contains auras of sorts, today i got back my sustenance (starts with b, ends with net, no its not bayonet). *rawr. must feed..*

I hope you can read this.

Green and yellow. in memory of all the trees that died in the forest fires. just kidding. but they always did say looking at green stuff is good for ur eyes. =( wad can i do if all my favourite colour combis are glaring. lol at least this ones nicer than the last right. anw if theres enough feedback and boycotting of my blog i guess ill have to change the combination to a less....striking one. which wont be as nice, duh.

random quote:
"Behold, for their ashes wreck vengeance upon the lands"-poetic/prophetic environmentalist

Wow i can take more than i thought.

or maybe its not as hard as i thought. wdv. anyway im kinda blogging out of obligation. dont think i will be blogging as often as before (much less than the once a day craze). ive more or less exhausted ideas for wad to blog about lol. and i dont suppose i need to put everything here. i started blogging cos i thought i had so much stuff to say. but i dont suppose i dont, after all lol. some of it is probably better off in my head.

right. i guess ill jus blog about random mundane stuff then. like the weather oO. lol seriously the haze is annoying. everythings so...hazy now. lol. and the suns a dull orange with a tinge of grey, resulting in the light taking on an unnatural tinge of yellow/orange. i know i said i like orange and yellow light, but this is..not natural. in addition, the heat is still stifling, and the rain served only to bring on more humidity. in conclusion, the weather isnt really its best. lol ok ignore this paragraph. seriously i dont quite know wad to type/how to type it.

maybe its cos ive been on some marathon. well, very briefly, my activities over the last 36 hours. yesterday, (monday right. yea monday lol.) went bowling with lk timwee lim min(lolnoshowsall). then having nothing better to do walked randomly around ps/heeren with lk and limin looking for...something. longkuans needs oO. was quite stoned out by then. then went home, waited for moca and xr, then went to city hall, had dinner, went home again, this time with all of them, for stayover (before moving out, must abuse, lol.) okay fine maybe i was a little anal about the state of my house, but nvm. in any case, alot of walking involved oO. anw, yea stayover. was, as usual, great. lol. thanks xr for the cd and stuff. and pardon the bad hospitality( from me, at least) and lack of panadol(or my ability to find any) lol. and as a result my comp now has >double the original amount of songs. yay oO (how to save a life). lol i think pretty soon im gonna turn emo. anw armed with four hours of sleep the afternoon was spent stoning away, and uhh cs with jensons classmates. (jenson robs me of my right to be tired btw =/). i think cs will be one of my favouritest games. when (and if) i learn to play it.

and thats my last 36 hrs. in summarized, straightforward, non-beat around the bush form. how boring lol. have u fallen asleep yet. cos i think im going to soon(which may or may not be related to the quality of the post). then again i might get insomnia (the pre-gp paper insomnia has installed that worry in my head).
Anyways, i am thankful.

Aftermath is chem

Okay here we go.

False statements are 5, 11, 13, 15, 18.

1. At one point in time i had guppies in cheap plastic tanks, at another i had various fishes in a not-so-cheap tank, at another i had swordfish in a small fountain-pond, and at another i had koi in a fibreglass tank.
Uhh yea. now i just have koi in a pond. i miss the aquarium. sort of.


2. My favourite time of the day is the 6am-11am period.
whats not to like? everythings a nice orange-turning-to-yellow. without the crappy heat. wad else could be my favourite time of the day? hmm 6-7pm comes quite close though.

3. I am unable to think of anyone whose guts i hate so bad i want to kill the fella.
yea well wdv.

4. Being an extremely docile guy, i have squished less than 20 mosquitoes and ants combined my entire life.
lol why does everyone pick this..firstly i dont squish ants, i flick them. and uhh mosquitoes..well i 'd rather not get my hands dirty. lol.

5. I used to know a lot about dinosaurs. when i was eight i knew what a masiakasaurus was.
lol nava almost got this. the first half of the statement is true, the second...is the result i got for googling 'most recently discovered dinosaur'. lol i think this prevented ppl from getting 5/5. it takes a truly dedicated soul to find this out.

6. Ive cheated someone of money before.
yea well. it was in primary one, and everyday i bought a hot dog bun which cost 50 cents, and my mom would give me 50 cents everyday. so one day somehow there was a 20 cent coin in my bag, and i took it and gave it to the auntie (unknowingly) and she spotted it, and i seriously thought i gave her the 50 cent coin, and i argued with her for abit, then a teacher came and asked, 'are u sure u gave her 50 cents?' so i said ya, and she paid for me. then i went back after recess and found the 50 cent coin in my bag and was like... damn i dont remember wad i said. but i still remember. traumatic.

7. In primary school i always wanted to be a prefect, cos i wanted power, and got angry when i wasnt chosen.
lol i still duno why. was always so close. wasnt selected in p2, but was appointed monitor in p3. then after i changed school, half my class were prefects, but i wasnt, despite being in the better half of the class, academically and in terms of behaviour. this is before i became 'anti-establishment'. still, its quite puzzling. think its because i was too childish.

8. When i was younger i used to fold lots of origami, then use them as toys and start playing with them.
yeah well i never had much to do. and they looked cool. i even had a plot. which consisted mostly of fighting. and fighting. and cool action scenes with paper figures. yay.

9. I've moved house 6 times.
and moved back to the same house twice lol.

10. At one time i wanted to learn to draw, so i borrowed drawing books from the library.
umm yea. no comment. i read fiction too quickly for things to do over the course of the loan.

11. It was only the december hols after PSLE that i was allowed to access the computer anytime i wanted.
actually it was only in sec2 lol -.-. before that i had to do stuff like wait till my mom wasnt at home then ask my dad. or swim for time, which was initiated by me/my brother, cant remember. but i think my mom wouldnt have minded, cos one day she came home and saw me playing and din say anything so i assumed i was granted free access.

12. Currently my computer contains more songs by the beatles than any other artiste/group.
lol didnt think i would make it that easy did you. this is true, at least on the morning of posting. i found this old beatles cd, and due to the sad nature of my playlist and mugging being very boring i copied it ><

13. Corn is one of the vegetables that i actually enjoy eating.
ummmm no. i dont really like corn actually. lol my words actually carry a lot of weight. 'does no one believe me to be capable of liking corn' and no1 puts 13 after that =/

14. I think of myself as anti-social.
okay, so maybe not in school. but outside school, like my first year of church for example, ..

15. There used to be this mango tree in my backyard that yielded the sourest of mangoes, and (only) my parents would put black sauce in it and eat it.
okay it was my neighbours tree. lol.

16. I was so superstitious, i used to believe that the good and bad things that happened in a day would balance out. hence if bad things happened to me i would think 'theres bound to be good things later on'.
lol btw leonard, i currently dont think its true ><. think its all about perception lah. anw, its mostly gone now, but im still paranoid ^^.

17. When i was about 7 i used to get my maid to catch them little brown beetles, and put them in plastic tanks and tried to feed them. but they all died, so i stopped.
yeah well. need i say more.

18. When i was unwillingly appointed physics rep in sec4 i thought at least it was better than nothing.
well no not really. i thought it was quite shitty she appointed me rep of the subject i did not hesitate to drop. i may have sucked as lit rep, but...

19. Long ago i fell down in my own front yard and cut my head against those green wire fences, and had to go to the hospital for a few stitches.
yeah well theres a teeny mark on my left eyebrow. i remember crying all the way to the hospital and back, before my mom gave up and scolded me and i realized i was crying for no reason lol. at least i think thats wad happened. i was like, six?

20. In my opinion, theres alot of things most people dont know about me. (how giveaway is this)
uhh the only people who guessed this got zero.


SO.
SCORES.

lol the tagboard doesnt have the other ppls scores, so xr, moca, wt and phang (im not sure who else) u wont get ur answers, but i remember ur scores.

so in first prize, with 3/5: MoXaR. 1.5 each? =/ (dont rmbr ur choices)
2nd prize, with 2/5: wt(dont rmbr choices), longkuan (2,9,11,15,19), jishun (1,18,13,9,14)
3rd prize, with 1/5: leonard (2, 4, 9, 12, 15), yihui (1, 2, 4, 14, 18), lim min (4, 6, 8, 11, 12)
Consolation (for everyone else), with 0/5 (=P): phang (dont rmbr), daphne(20, 4, 9, 10, 16), crunch(4 6 12 7 16), nava (4, 16, 9, 10, 20)

lol and thats all folks, thanks for playing