April fools.

Alright lim min so you were right, it does rain a lot in April.

Everythings moist, decaying and eroded. Hold on to whatever you've got, dont get washed away. and sorry, if sometimes i forget. argh.

Havent blogged in ages. okay lah half a month. sian =p. April sucked. for almost everyone i know. now if April was anyone's favourite month of the year tell me and i will go over and shake your hand. but. oh well. if God has a plan, then i guess everything that happens happens for a reason. just not really fun when that reason is to test. hmph. we'll all get by, somehow and eventually. time solves everything?

I have a theory that everyones life becomes plain ol' weird sometimes, for no fathomable reason. okay its not very original. emphasis is on the everyone. if that makes it any less nonsensical. so at some point or other people start adopting Unwell as their theme song lol. and this is like, a lot of people.

Church is occupying an increasing amount of space in my life. which is good, i guess. second finger still a little numb from carrying the curry chicken yesterday oO. starting to talk to people and all. basically, im becoming sociable. shock. and my lack of inspiration for the pre-E outreach programme vaguely alarms me. lol.

It feels pretty good writing something thats not an essay. after half a month. ^.^ lol. May soon. if recent weather patterns (hoho what patterns) are anything to go by its going to be damn hot. wonder how it'll turn out. much labour or something. lol. damn why are As this year. Must mug ><

Okay enough angst lol. but hey, that felt good.
Edit: nice sunset. =)

this is how i know it's real.

it's always been like this, yar?
Fine. i admit lol. me today = moderately emo. quite silly. i mean very silly.
firstly, thanks, i appreciate it. even if its not explicitly stated. (well now it is ><) explicit isnt exactly my favourite word anyway.
secondly, you know what it's like, i guess. maybe?
thirdly, dont you dare feel troubled. it's really mine to sort out lol. i am, after all, a bloody guy. oh, and i will.

In other news. my cheeks hurt (still). yz anniversary on saturday. i was the miscellaneous help guy, being six hours early and having no specific purpose there. after awhile, i became one of the two pioneering members of the balloon blowing committee! then the electric pump spoilt. so ended up having to do it manually. uhh the other people came and helped after band prac, and about 4 hours was spent blowing balloons. quite fun really. XD. i mean amusing to watch people with balloon phobia. anyway it was about 300 balloons(i think?) between less than 10 people over 4 hours. so thats...quite pro. lol. except later all of them were burst. =/ and we didnt even get a photo. oh right me fingers were hurting yesterday. cause i take more time to tie a balloon than to inflate it.

oh and theres the outreach prog on may 19. im on the 3-man planning committee. and its supposed to be bigger than yz anniversary, so i...really wonder how this is going to work. life is getting a little busier. anyone wanna come. =/ lol

what lies beneath

nebulous, by the way, is mondays word of the day. such an intriguing word. :P

So. it's time for a not-so-nebulous update. i shall cease discussing my state of mind/whatever. always ends up..nebulous. problem is, i havent much idea what to write. so. umm this'll be alot like old times!

alright. long weekend = relatively busy. friday had good friday service@expo. and...im in the planning commitee for pre-e event. (planning committee currently = 3 people) cause only 2 people replied the sms. oO. anyway my generation of ideas for these things kinda sucks. but oh well. lol i can point out alot of flaws though ><. then train ride #1 from expo to civil service club. bowling with phang and lk. umm yay phang owns me now. train ride #2 home. Saturday comes along. train ride #3 to little india. umm writers cip meeting. attendance seven. basically i turned up half an hour late and just. listened to them talk. lawl. the external volunteer appeared to have been left out of all the rj-exclusive talk. train ride #4 home. an hour later, train ride #5 to city hall. dinner with 4i people ^^. best attendance in a longlong time. i miss the old brand of humour sometimes. and we walked alot. originally with purpose. originally. oh and weiren has biceps.:Dtrain ride #6 home. alright i know 6 train rides in 2 days doesnt seem like alot, but by my 4th train ride i was really sick of the whole thing ><. hmm sunday. easter service. which was quite pro. then went to...buy a piano for sister. nothing interesting there though. right. so anti-climatic. lol

about time i blog, i guess. its kinda stagnating, but these days there are no conclusions to anything, or thoughts get themselves tied up.

alright. stuff over the last few days. saturday was kinda shitty. i was rudely awakened, at 530, for...no fathomable reason. anyway the moon was. big and round and bloody red (no pun). had to put on my glasses and check i wasnt dreaming, lol. then the latter half of the day (i.e. after getting home from bs) was spent in a foul mood. all the way till sunday morning. so uhh. sunday stuff was alot better. went lanning. for four hours. after qing ming.

bleagh this post was supposed to be up on tuesday or something. so the last paragraph is really supposed to be longer. heh but whatever. things have been going quite haywire lately, grades and all. sometimes faith wears thin and walls start trembling. but i'll make it through. just like before. in fact we're all going to make it. hope for it. ><

and i dont always know what to say, or what to do. eloquence was never something i had. but i'll be around.