lol i think i've been quite the asshole (or emo) the last few days. that is to say, being less sensitive than usual, and basically giving less shit about anyone apart from myself. i'm not reproaching myself about it though. (does that make me an asshole still lol). hmm. maybe i should be that way more. more selfish, to quote anonymous person (in case he objects to his identity being revealed). some things affect you more than you thought they would. some things affect you more than you thought they would, and theres relief, because theres truth there, and truth can never be absolutely bad oO.

well, if i happen to have offended anyone, my apologies. (thought chances are you probably would have started it -.-. just so happens i might have been more volatile than usual) i should be (almost)back to normal now, i think. i could credit dota for that. it helps blank out emotional state. unless some you get into a virtual argument with some idiot.

brevity of whine.

i think i could laugh at myself. days are longer in the shortest month, and i want to sleep.

lol duno why i tire so easily nowadays. nowadays being..since saturday? think its the cnys fault. like wth i saw relatives on my fathers side for 4 consecutive days. as a result of my being quite tired (damn maths, and im still at 11a) this post will be void of intellectual stuff. or anything remotely funny. hmm humour has been in short supply the last week+.

so. since last week: my very own laptop. oO. got windows vista summore. which is quite cool but the entertainment sucks. they record ur minesweeper win rate. mine is like 4% currently. as such i have decided to switch my primary source of entertainment when theres nothing to do. it was Chess Titans for awhile (which is basically chess), but now its Mahjong Titans (which is basically match-the-tiles). dont look down on it, playing it for extended periods of time (which really dont seem very long) results in sianness to the highest degree, and potential headaches. zzz this morning i thought of resolving to play nothing but dota. hasnt worked out.

chinese new year. dont want to talk about it.

miscellaneous. so many things to do. so little time i dedicate to them. really screwed. oh and i think my scandal saturation levels are reaching maximum capacity. if that made sense. therefore i have decided to take a break from discussing old/overdiscussed scandals. which is basically almost everything. lol. okay tired liao dont want type liao =p

Once, upon a forever

hmm. happy valentines day, or something. hmm. how long it has been. Very, i think. least it seems that way.

anyway. since i last blogged: my house is pretty much..pretty. right. kay wdv its looking quite good. my life is currently not falling apart, tyvm. my understanding of the damn lectures and status on tutorials, though, is still the same.

on my 18th valentines day: save some random stuff, rather uneventful. but relatively, eventful. quite stupid, actually. lol. so nothing much actually happened apparently. but longkuan got a rose. it would appear his pri sch classmates all like him very much. or someone else does. i got ego marshmallows from lk. oO. and i have a story to tell someday. lol too much chocolate doesnt feel very good.

chinese new year approaches. and woot i just threw away a whole bunch of hongbaos. (and removed the money) (see last or last last post) i love my efficiency.

But who gives a shit about the hongbao when what really matters is whats inside. lawl.

(woops, deleted part n/a anymore)

doesnt matter anymore

kay honestly i still do not get it. been rather moodswingy lately. if lit is in my blood then i must be losing a lot of blood.

anyway my room is almost up. that is to say i now have aircon. yay. and it is now painted. orange ftw. double yay. and my table is uber neat, cos all the mess is in a box. and there is now cable. and i can access the internet, so its back to the old routine. and woot the laptop is currently in my room, which is a first. old routine meaning i can waste a lot of time basically staring at the screen waiting for the sky to fall. well the internet free days have been a lot more bearable than expected. sunday was absolutely shitty, internet withdrawal at its best. monday i was hanging around school the whole day, got home like 10+ , so there was hardly any chance to miss msn/dota. plus there was internet at lks house oO. tuesday...lol was at home for like 3 hrs? spent the 3 hrs downstairs. renovations kinda left the place in conditions unfit for doing anything. started reading screwtape letters again. clive staples is some sort of genius guy with a whole lot of sense. and later went to timbre (?) either timber, or timbrei, wdv. mm. well now i have back internet so take it away even for a day and i am going to suffer from severe withdrawal again. and i am falling asleep. so i appear to be typing stuff to myself(and typing nonsense inconsequential sentences) again. damn homework.

to the stars.

woot i am wide awake. i am moving tomorrow. how does one say goodbye, even to a house (an echo-riddled one).

on a separate note this house was really the reason for my changing primary schools. and who knows where i would be now if i hadnt moved. somewhere quite different, no doubt. still in this school, i think. but. lol. but if God had a plan, has a plan, then i guess it could not have happened any other way.

its a full moon tonight. some bloke on radio says its called the snow moon. the full moon at this time of the year. anyway. i am out of here, into that shithole. for now its a shithole anyway. who knows what its going to be like, after renovations.

anyhow, you're not likely to see me online for the next five days. at least. so its no msn or dota for the next 5 days. its not going to be pleasant, but after so long, i think i can endure that. lol. well. goodbye then.

99

posts, roses, and the ka-tet of nineteen and ninety nine. fine dont mind me lol. i am freaking bored. i was freaking bored about 3 hours ago as well, so i went looking through my old posts, trying to recall what the hell was going on in my life when i was typing them. lol. you know what, i realized ive lost my old sense of humour. the one that inspired shellfish stories.

anyway its february. i realized i once wondered what january would be like. lol. i duno really. the weather, in the most literal sense, has been nice though. but if the first two days of february are anything to go by...well, january might seem alot better.

anyway(again), happy birthday to uhh wts mom(1st), lim mins dog(2nd), mocas dad(3rd), and ann tay(4th). sigh. thanks for the present btw =). i think i know of a few things i want done by 19. but well. thats for closer to 19 lol.