between believing the best and assuming the worst, i tend towards the latter. hard as i may try. been that way since. forever. it also happens that i appear to possess the extraordinary ability to construct, from the presence/absence of things, long complicated trains of thought that get derailed, and end up having to start from the beginning. damn paranoia. lol. Faith. =/. in God, that is. (dont worry this has nothing to do with anyone or anything. seriously.) i'll try. meanwhile, bear with me. lol.

on another note, i dont do engineering. o_O
eh, this is a really short post, but whatever. lol.

this is just to say.

chem owned me. completely. on the other hand, cts are over. then again, highness about it only lasted like 5 minutes. now, i = abit tired. so my eyes tell me. okay. anyway, its been....2 weeks of slacking + mugging + everything else. lol. thanks =p.

anyway#2, yay. 3 days of slacking, ooh. then back to school. we need proper holidays.

anyway#3. hmm. right, wanted to blog on sunday, but wasnt (that) free. umm. youth sunday. lol, service felt alot...different (better). when serving. even if it was just ushering. plus get to pose in long sleeved shirt. and...accumulate hand-shaking experience.

anyway#4. no more. =/. eh, i dont know what to blog about anymore. having to resort to changing colours as substitute. lol. dhoom approaches.

One night of desolation #2

alright. i cant access msn. -.-. or hotmail. they say its no good to 'keep everything inside'. so im just going to...rant.

anyway. i've tried everything. lol. except downloading yahoo msnger, but i thought that might be a little extreme. i think its the damned router (since i've tried using my brothers comp as well). if thats the case the router can go eat shit and die. incidentally this is major problem # 2 with the router/wireless, not including random connection problems. problem#1, discovered yesterday : i get disconnected when my sister shuts down her comp. damn wireless adapter. alternatively it could be the msn server problem, but thats quite unlikely. plus asking around wouldnt be very convenient. -.-

okay so this isnt the first time this is happening. its #2, i think. not including the night of desolation#1, where msn server got screwed (but even then i had windows msnger). the last time...my mom fixed it. lol. i have no idea about my moms actual level of techno proness. bleagh. probably ask her later.

in other news, my mugging is damn screwed up. i mean it ><

lol maybe she wont be able to fix it, then maybe i'll actually start mugging. instead of wasting time trying to fix the damn thing. hoho bnet is working fine though.

[edit] the thing started working after i published this. @_@
who am i kidding this is such a weak rant. lol.
[edit#2] screwed up again. wtf.

Exhale Deeply.

lol this is supremely stupid. i think i fail my logic. and common sense. the presence of the 'i think' would seriously bring to question the accuracy of the statement. knowing that one is being -insert negative quality- (and it is unwarranted) doesnt make it any easier to stop it. so im sorry. lol.

anyway. got screwed by chem test quite badly. that shouldnt really matter, since i lost 15 notes, scanned randomly selected pages of 15b, did the same for 16. all the same i would gladly fall for mssoh's...sort of tactic. motivation is a good thing. cts are coming. watch me. lol.

sigh. hardly motivation actually. not going to last. i should start mugging. oh, and i used to be good. always thought i was, anyway. still do, maybe.

one or two people in class are How to Save a Life crazy. i actually like the song ( it was perfection of first misinterpretation, sometime late last year. actually i mentioned it in passing) but i might soon start referring to it as 'that damn song' at this rate. funny thing is i never quite managed to figure out what it really means. the confusion is primarily due to the presence of three protagonists, i think. heh i dont think many people really could, judging from all the weird youtube videos involving suicide. and other foolish ways of dying (actually i only watched one, at weirens request). well it was grammy nominated. not that i think it deserving of winning, but...the dixie chicks won. =/.

the next two weeks look like a lot of shit. saturday please come. (evening, the rest of the day looks to be really screwed up. and...i saw that.)

there. all better ^^. and dont ask please.

=/)

yay. gp is done. paper is weird. i screwed it up. i think. i dont care lol. i will not think about the rest of the papers and the dismal state of my revision.

been a long time since i blogged. i think i forgot how to. sigh okay. anw i are kinda tired. today whole class was tired ><. maybe my being tired has something to do with the 3 hrs of talking crap with crunch and phang (and later lim min)(and earlier longkuan) after school. its quite mad lah just sit there and talk and talk and talk. actually listen to all of phangs 'did you know's. intended to go home at 3, then 315, then 430, then 445. actually went home at 6 oO. but quite fun lah. lol. the day before was spent trying to do work with lk and phang, but ended up talking crap with lk and phang till 530.(lol i just remembered the lit essay. shit) phang is the constant, obviously. i just cant decide if the phang came first or the crap came first.

hmm. and my moods been swinging quite badly in school lol.