Rest aint rest

and holidays aint holidays when your head is full of things. like uhh. i should a) do my homework and listen during lectures(wtf@vectors), b) stop being so damn paranoid and assuming the worst, its not fair to the people/events in question, c) start writing (i had my first line a few days ago, but thats forgotten now)(correction, it goes, a passing car sends light and shadow gliding through the thin lace curtain and across the room. or something. hmm its decent i think ><), d) finish packing my stuff, which would inevitably include, at some point or another, e) filing all of last years worksheets. also i should f) try and replace my gc before the damn warranty runs out, which i think is pretty soon, if its not already gone, along with (parents) 175 bucks. lol.

i think there is a little elaboration to be done for d). so i've been trying to sort out my stuff. rusty dusty things that persist in their existence. some items worthy of mention would include my old mickey mouse piggy bank (some random foreign coins included), a bottle of dried glue( yes whatever was inside kinda solidified), my old postcard collection (which was contained in a photo album)(if thats what you want to call it, self-created cover page made using that old crap software with the purple guy who went by the name mcgee (wth was it called)), and my old pin collection. as you can clearly see there i used to collect things for the sake of them =/. oh right and money oO. which i nearly threw away. plus i did a thorough examination of the top drawer, as i always do when moving, and sometimes when im not moving. usually i just take the class photos (which date back to p3) and stare at them(and crap i lost the p1/p2 ones), but this time i examined all the old birthday cards as well. (from the time when i still called my parents papa and mama and my sisters name was undecided, and was therefore known as baby). lol. ah well. theres some random other photos from random long-agos. like uhh zomg i had one with council head! and the rest of the prefects and asst moniter/ess and monitress from p3 lol. haha and thats about all i have to go by. what little i remember has probably been distorted beynd recognition. and some from australia, back in p5? and some from...the birdpark/reptile garden. when it was exciting to take pictures of animals. lol, probably still would be. and not one, but two passport sized photos of myself from...somewhere between p1 and 4 lol. handsome, charming, sweet little boy that i was then. aww.
ah well. rusty dusty stuff from long ago. that for reasons unknown persist in their existence.

lol. ignore me. anyway. there was good weather today(imo). for about 2 hours. before it got hot =/. occasional bouts of really nice weather these days. relative to the last few months that is. stupid singapore weather/global warming, on permanent mood swings. also, the holidays seem to have severely crippled my academic ability. and. Cramped my Style. lmao. blogging style, anyway.

one last thing =/. just the other day, i mean yesterday lol, i was considering the moon's pathos. though i would love to show off my depth of insight, that would make this paragraph sound more corny than it already does, so i'll leave you to derive it yourself if you think yourself really really bored. its funner =/. i mean less unfun. lol. (wow@number of typos/punctuation errors. half asleep at 9+ oO)

All right

almost. wdv. lol. they played How to Save a Life on class95 today (?!). alright, theyre getting angsty now (and a little outdated). hmm actually its supposed to be anti-angst(?) but sounds damn angsty anyway =/.

yesterday was find-out-about-your-siblings-love-lives day. as i both found out who my sister likes and found my brothers (relatively new) blog >.<. the first does not really warrant any comment, but the second...i reserve comment. here, anyway. he also tried to find out how to fold paper roses, i find out today. i think i can claim credit for that =/. maybe i should teach him lol. whatever the case im not visiting his blog anymore ><. looking at history is damn stalker behaviour lol.

in other news my lack of efficiency the whole year has been mildly frustrating. in my room i tend to devote my attention to whatever the radios playing and/or walking around. and in front of the comp is just in front of the comp. lol maybe all that will change once i move, and then i will have both the radio and be in front of the comp, and a bed. and there will be so much to distract me i will just have to work.

and i can only remember the answer.

this is really quite irrelevant and non-intelligent and all, but if anyones wondering where have all the cowboys gone, i think theyre all singing their sad sad songs. okay nevermind, dont think anyones going to get it but me. wow i can entertain myself. lol as for the rest, i think i'm losing it =(. oh well.

the weeks been...good. lol. now if i could only understand vectors, econs(i dont even know the damn topic), and bring myself to do my homework. speaking of homework i think there is quite alot of it. and today was almost entirely spent in church, and so will a large chunk of tmr, so im quite screwed. as i was saying, today was almost entirely spent in church, doing mostly nothing lol. oh right there was this inscribe a bible thing which i was persuaded to wait around(i.e. play lan) for 4 hrs for. basically they give people bible verses to handwrite, and compile them together. so no matter how small, ugly, unreadable and full of things to complain about my handwriting may be, a copy of revelations chapter 8 written in it is going to be sent to Israel oO. umm. yay i guess. lol. making history, they say. perhaps, but i think i've made better histories than that lol. hmm. damn, im running out of things to say too.

w4s

lol first things first! happy birthday weiren and raja =p.

and so i realize i havent much to say.

oh well. wdv. had j1 orientation today. for writers. i must say i think i was quite sociable. anyway since we finished the stupid thing like 3o minutes before everyone else was sitting around doing more or less nothing. well i told the only joke i remember (the black knight one) but nvm. then i posed my love life question to the j1s, and a girl commented on the lack of selection in rj. ..and i decide to reserve comment. draw ur own inferences pls. hmm. having j1s around reminds me of ncc lol.

amazing how people can go on so little. or have to. or think they have to. just take my bloody h3 lit. i think the only reason i had courage enough to take it was cos of albar. or at least what she said. and wth who knows how much she meant it anyway. mightve been nice sounding parting words lol. and if she was wrong..well then i guess...she would have unintentionally screwed me up. oO. oh well. wdv. stuck here already, might as well just do it.

and i really need to learn to work in front of the comp. seriously doing nothing -.- and my file next to me just to make me feel a little better. how unproductive. think i'll try spending my night some other way today.

11/1

as one might know, today happens to be the 11th of January. i must say i think i should be quite grateful for it(today being the 11th that is), as i started the day determined to go through it completely free of any negative..stuff. genuinely cheery, in other words. aye, unfortunately, the day seemed to want to test me or something. see first there was the unfortunate accident of my having taken some relatively sexy pants in the darkness that was my room. now i usually would have borne it with all my usual good humour. and no, they who seemed bent on causing me uhh. torment? did not succeed very much. rather, thanks to the aid of lactic acid buildup produced by anaerobic respiration, resulting in a feeling very much like a cross between wanting to puke and waking up after a short afternoon nap, succeeded rather in irritation. therefore, if anyone happened to feel..ignored? (i duno) Whatever. lol. in addition to that, my calf happened to cramp somewhere in the canteen. whatever would i do without moca :D. oh right some fishing car stopping at the bus stop happened to not notice the large puddle of water, and me, standing there. luckily only my shoes and abit of my pants were not spared. -.- and uhh the two teachers standing behind the bus stop under a single umbrella to avoid potential accidents like the one that had befallen my shoes must be credited for their...ability to anticipate everything. after all, though buses are considerate enough to slow down, there are lots of cars that happen to drop people off at the bus stop.

lol this post reeks of...i dont know what. something that i do not like sounding like. adding more swear words and simplifying the language might help i guess. anyway, apart from that, my day was almost perfectly fine. though who knows what mightve happened if today didnt occur..today. uhh right. lol. since a line stretches to infinity, it is impossible to get to the other side without either crossing it, or erasing it. sounds intelligent doesnt it? hold on, while i try to figure out what it could possibly mean.

Things.

you know how there are some things in life that seem too coincidental to be pure coincidence. like csc used to say, there is no such things as coincidences in life. something like that, the frequency(if thats the word) interfered with my hearing ><. like ummm. what is the probability of you dialling the wrong number, but the person who picks up the phone has the same name as the person u intend to call. =o.
was reading pride and prejudice the whole afternoon at home. uhh trying to anyway. btw my afternoon was computer free =o. i say trying to because there appeared to be some party at my house today. of course i missed out on most of it, as i was on a self-imposed exile to my room. (another one of) my brothers friends was there when i came back, then left, then my sisters school bus friends/our sort of neighbours(and their neighbours) from the nearby apartments came over. so between the high pitched screaming, stampedes, and the opposite neighbours (another one) dogs barking(apparently its kinda bored cooped up in the house and wants to play with kids and their bicycles/skate scooters) and my radio one cannot expect me to get much work done. but wattheshit theres so much to be done. and my sisters school bus friend is a most interesting character. for a p4 kid, anw. comes into my room, wonders what i could be doing (doesnt find out :), but honestly a good question), cant pronounce literature and essay (><) , comments on my being from raffles, leaves, and disallows me from locking my door lol.

Right.

new template. i mean colours. yay for blogger beta thats not beta anymore. now i dont have to search for html colour codes -.-. yes i guess i am quite obsessed with lime green. lol. alright moca which one hurts ur eyes more.

Days of feeling invincible

lol remember the days when we all used to confuse invincible with invisible? confusion is justified though, maybe. one need only watch the invisible man.

eh, this post has no point, really. nothing to do on a Saturday afternoon. (this one could hardly be called unpleasant though) the computer seems to object greatly to my playing dota. restarts, leavers and fatal errors are its most powerful weapons. and the laptop is too lagged. Maple has proven to be so mind numbingly boring that there is inclination not to use pots and just regenerate while reading pride and prejudice. which, btw, has one of the ugliest covers i have seen on a book. i am tempted to use my shiny reflective golden bookmark and put it about a third of the way down the cover. and well, cover. a strip of it. also i believe i have discovered why them bookmarks have messages printed on them, especially christian ones. for example mine is entitled Serenity Prayer. not that it helps very much. too thin!

however it has proven to be relatively interesting, if supposedly relatively bimbotic. though watching the movie and knowing the whole plot kinda makes you look at eliza bennet and darcy differently. certainly not as smart as one would think her without knowing the rest of the story, though clever relative to her sisters nonetheless.(hmm alot of relations in the book too) of course ive barely started so this opinion might not justified. okay this is perhaps only the second time i have started on the book before the teacher does so i guess thats a good sign. whatever the case i am sure we will all have fun writing long interesting essays on our theories of love, or whatever kind of question one could possibly set for the book.

lol, was extremely bored last night when i chanced upon someones (i duno i think i'll keep it anonymous) old blog, to which i appeared to be the third distinct(if my maths isnt screwed up, distinct=different?) visitor cos almost no1 knew about it. anyway i happened to be featured(well not the main one obviously) in one particular episode (uhh yes i looked through the archives). anyway i was like. i appear to be unable to find appropriate words, but i suppose it was something like (=o)(well i wouldnt say i was at a loss for words, didnt fall off my chair or anything, and woohoo a smiley. !.)the following will sound quite cheesy, but yea i guess ur right it is rather(ahh fine, not rather) tempting to join in the mass of angst(and of course its good friends anger and bitterness), decipherable (or indecipherable, though what would that make it?) that can be found advertised to the public. amazing how someone you know could be going through that much without you ever knowing. (though i daresay some would prefer knowing). therefore to those who resist temptation, and find it in themselves to go through stuff more or less alone.(come to think of it thats almost everyone. i think. maybe its an obligation lol. feel like quoting some lines from pnp ><><)

Obligation

is part of life.

i appear to have left my pencil case in school, most likely in the hall. in which case it would have long been ripped apart by j1s. or they might wave it around in the air and ask whose it is, but of course its no ones, so who knows what they're gonna do with it then. i'm not exactly weeping though. anyway its been with me for quite a long time, so heres an obligatory tribute to the various items in there, and a brief description.

Blue pens-free, about 20 more in the cabinet.
Pencils-free. and no lead. cant seem to find any in the house.
Stapler-very old, very cranky. flips open without warning. pencil cap tends to get stuck in there.
Highlighter-free gift.
Pencil case-free gift.
Red pen-runs out of ink sometimes.
Drug abuse badge-no comment.
Ruler-25 cents
Correction tape-its pink.
Keychain thing thats really a handphone accessory- uh brought back from some european country. ouch.

haha whatever. think i'll miss my blue pen though, the one with the papermate logo almost completely faded. it miraculously never ever ran out of ink, or got screwed, despite my uhh dropping it numerous times.

in other news my resistance to sleep during chem lectures seems to have diminished somewhat. plus i get tired damn easily. work faster next time, mister brain.

chem tutorials look like theyre gonna be pretty fun. not looking forward to seeing her angry though.

zz forgot what else i had to say.

Forecast

Really good! (haha i just erased an entire paragraph of sarcastic potentially hurtful comments on the forecast for this year. but then i realized i might be exposed. so thats gone, which is probably a good thing, cos i was feeling pretty bad. after all, people have done nothing to deserve flaming. yes. i should be less cynical of them. after all my first impressions have mostly proven themselves to be overly harsh. just take my first impressions of the class and vadi ><. well anyway. going to miss vadi, gwee. the year looks like its going to be full of...work. everyones favourite activity. also looks like its going to be dry, boring, and filled with..unoriginal stuff that we've all heard too many times already, since pri sch i think. at least as far as teachers are concerned. well at least lit doesnt look too bad, according to wt. and pnp looks infinitely funner than othello. this is before i have touched the book btw)

ignore whats in the brackets pls.