Advice

right. anyway. remember how ur parents always tell u, drink lots of water when ur sick. well if u feel like puking, dont. lol. seriously.

Did you think your day was shitty

hmm. things tend to repeat themselves. firstly. i have an mc. again. =/

anw after econs i was inexplicably struck with headache + stomachache. this rendered my productivity for the afternoon more or less gone. so i spent the whole day waiting for 7 oclock for the doctor to open, moaning and groaning and pretending to be pathetic. (but seriously its not very pleasant). then i ate dinner, and miraculously(disappointingly) wad was left of my fever was about as much dinner i ate.(something not quite right about that sentence). lol went doctor anw, since my lack of productivity would kill me tmr.

'gastric flu, and u still have a mild fever, but should be better by 10 or 11 tonight. do you need an mc?'

at this i stop to ponder. 'uhh okay'

'okay lah i dont think ur the type to skip lessons, but just in case' . lol looking guai has its advantages, no? or maybe thats a tactic they employ. questioning my integrity.

but seriously i really am guai. now im in a moral dilemma. to pon or not to pon (assuming i am better tmr of course [always good to have an escape route, in case teachers really read blogs]). . go to school tomorrow, chiong lit assignment+ chem tutorial in 2 hrs with a stomachache, or stay at home and bore myself playing dota. hmmm. what a difficult decision.

Wanna see ur facial expression change?

Relative to my sister, i eat fast. which becomes a problem when we eat out, cos i get bored. which leads my thoughts to roam realms unimaginable. anw heres the latest instalment of things that arent even funny. =)

So once upon a time, in the plains of faraway England, there lived a young horse. as this young steed (who was rather vain) gazed at his reflection in the water bucket one day, he found himself most dissatisfied with his snout. 'its short and stubby! how am i supposed to find a girlfriend like this (mares generally find long snouts attractive)' so being most unhappy about it, he went about looking for ways to extend his snout. he tried all sorts of things. first he offered to plough the land, walking backwards. then he asked his fellow horses to clamp his face between their rumps, and he pulled backwards with all his might. he even asked his friend the wolf to bite (gently) and pull. however all that didnt work, even after a few months hard work. so he was upset, and slipped into depression. permanently. and thats the end. (what a sad story)




















anw. the morale of the story is
Why pull a long face?

Tale as old as time

lol weiren sent me disney songs ytd^^. well not really songs, apparently more of ripped-off audios from the videos. haha still rox though. lol its like subutex for going to fairytaleland. well his songs have dramatically altered the composition of my dramatically small playlist. since its on virtually all the time, theres gonna be less of westlife and other half-angsty songs ingrained into my subconsciousness, and more of disney-ish stuff. great i can be a happy goober now.

ah yes the glorious/not-so-glorious days of childhood. i wonder how much of us should be living in it. lol okay actually i can remember only bits of pieces from the disney videos time. but still. its like the african forest in HoD (quite unlike the lion king version =p). silent and imposing and always there.

anw. today was nice i guess. econs tutorial was stupid to a small extent, but its still stupid lol. and vadi, phang and leonard how combined make good comedy. unintentionally, on phangs part. lol. went sks bookshop to look for bs material. lol they seem to have everything except something we can decide on ><. but its a happy place ^^. lol seriously theres a..nice atmosphere there, for lack of a better word to describe it. and now im stoning =p. again.

following xrs good example, i have decided that after this weekend i shall stop playing dota till promos. at least i shall stop playing pubs without friends. then i can sort of start mugging. ><. and if i dont keep my word may i be bitten by 10 mosquitoes oO.

Theres some sick pleasure in melancholy

which was probably wad i was feeling most of today yar. today reminded me(again) of how doing nothing is more draining than doing something. how strange, i was stoning for >an hr in the canteen, falling asleep during chem lecture(sort of) but then evening came and things were suddenly brighter. and for the past few hrs ive been bloody hyper. maybe its PW. but what ive been doing since 9 is walking around the room(in circles) for about 5 mins, coming back to the comp, playing minesweeper (132 lol!), flipping through the mass/mess of notes on the table, maybe typing a sentence or two (if im feeling up to it), then rinse and repeat. which explains why i took 3 hrs to type 400 words. anw pw has to be done in the middle of the night, or it wont feel right.

btw. from doing eom i can conclude that pw is really not about creativity, or teamwork, or any of that bullshit. seriously it actually hampers creativity. all it is is forcing students to do some weird subject with no basis, and then fulfill some weird shit requirements that was crapped up by some weirdos in moe (and dont even make sense). and they make u follow all the stupid guidelines. dont state this, no marks, dont link that, no marks, dont explain to the guy like hes some pri sch kid oso no marks. they just..create their own marking criteria. and it doesnt even make sense lol. as jai singh likes to say, ' we go by their rules and play their game lah okay'. err or something like that. the point is its yet another pathetic attempt at 'revamping' the education system, but perhaps the worst one yet(and ever). lol heres an analogy. its like doing botox injections. u see botox, u just inject, in the end the woman has a swollen face. lol okay neil humphreys says blogs are spaces for free expression, but instead of flaming the pap why not bitch about eom and moe.

lol oh right now i remember why i was feeling crappy most of the day. twas vadi announcing the start of stress season. =(. haha okay i don wanna think about it, write about it or do anything about it.

Random complaints.

i think monday should be made sleep-on-tuesday-cos-of-pw day.
i think pw sucks.
i think ms word's footnotes feature is kinda gay.
i think the weather sucks.
i think sleeping late is stoning me hence the lack of..anything to say.
i think the days/weeks/months ahead will be busy, on that ill bet a few bucks.

and this
is the record for shortest post ever, reading it must be bliss.
wad kinda lousy rhyme is this.

lol rather than coming up with more words that mean 'nothing' i will just leave the title. anw. im jus gonna complain so dont mind me.

todays sermon was on Speech, which encompasses swearing, lying and slander. right. i dont lie(haha irony) and i dont slander, not that viciously at least, which leaves me with swearing. yea i think im failing that really badly. now how am i gonna stop saying the f word when it goes off in my head no less than 5 times everyday in my head, clearly enunciated for maximum effect, and at least three times aloud, although not necessarily to people. according to the sermon one of the reasons why people swear is when crap happens to them, like when they walk into a lamp post.

in any case, u may or may not know that my faithful file xcalibre has become a cadaver.(ignore that) so i adjourned to the rj bookshop on friday to buy a new one. let me compare the two. new file cost 2.70, i dont know how much xcalibre cost, but its probably less. new file doesnt have enough space for notes(i can only transfer 3/4 of my notes, or 2 weeks worth of notes -.-), xcalibre was biig. and most importantly, xcalibre is more than 365 times more durable than the new file. thats not exxagerating, 'more than' is the most important part of the sentence. okay look i dont rmbr when i started using xcalibre, but to be safe ill say sec3. so it lasted me more than 2 yrs or 2*365 days, before the flap thing at the bottom came out. i mean the plastic might have been chipped away but it still functioned properly. right, anw the new file lasted me a whopping 2 days (i think it was meant for girls). seems like us poor things arent the only things the notes put pressure on. anw it broke as i was looking for my maths assignment, and i couldnt help but go f*** it. so there.

and it gets better. another reason for swearing is to express anger, which is a bad thing. after much flipping through my broken file for the maths assignment i realized it wasnt there! now im on a rather tight schedule. the assignments due tmr, theres a maths test on tuesday, and pw 2nd draft due on tuesday. so yay. knowing myself the assigment would have been the only thing i wouldve done over the entire weekend. so looks like its gonna be another unproductive weekend, hectic monday, and maybe a failed maths test. haha okay i dont rly mind unproductive weekends. and if i manage to do all that i can marvel at my own ownage. lol.

yeah anw after discovering the assignment was missing i involuntarily went on cussing for the next half hr. damn =(. although the post is filled with sidetracks, the main point is, basically, i demonstrated how little of the sermon i absorbed lol. oh well. still got a long way to go. meanwhile its 10pm and i still havent done shit(oops)(faeces).

Finally?

i have quite alot of thoughts right now that im trying to find a way to phrase, but am unable to find smart-alecky/poetic sounding sentences for them, partly due to the westlife song thats currently playing, so i wont. i think ill just keep them for myself. its better that way. and perhaps find a way to make them go away. and maybe they will.

instead i will say. Happy Birthday =P. to Joel (17th) (who doesnt know i have a blog and hence wont be reading this but nvm), thom (18th)(sorry i couldnt give u the chance to own my ass in dota) and Phang(fang)(today). or, as js would say,(where is junta i miss him so much). okay phang u have the honour of me spending abit more time on u, since ur birthday is today. firstly im so very sorry u had to fall sick, and just the day before your birthday (poor thing lol). what a pity. Get Well Soon! Secondly i hope for the sake of the ppl singing ur birthday song u dont sing along =P. okay im sorry i shdnt be flaming u on ur birthday. i was joking. (about the singing, not about the flaming) lol wow i know ppl whose birthdays fall on 3 consecutive days.

anw this post isnt long enough! so heres something random.

'See the TURTLE of enormous girth!

On his shell he holds the earth,

His thought is slow but always kind;

He holds us all within his mind'

-just one of the things that half-stuck after reading The Dark Tower. (half because i only remembered about half of it and had to search for the other). along with other random crap phrases like 'thankee-sai'. lol on the topic of reading, h3 lit hasnt (offcially) started and somehow i already know im gonna get owned by constance and prakash is gonna screw me. and i have to start reading again, but doesnt look like im gonna get the chance till november. =/

Reagents and conditions

I need lessons on intros. anw. today was.......weird. btw weird is, in my opinion, the best adjective in the english language. okay maybe not the best, but it certainly covers the widest scope. basically anything that one is unable to define with any of the other words in the dictionary, regardless of the persons english competency and scope of vocabulary, can be placed under the category of 'weird'.

in any case. today was.....weird. look, here are the conditions. with regard to me, anw. first condition: sick. basically my throat itches and my nasal cavity has been plugged. i do not know if this is the result of me catching some bug (derrick displays similar symptoms) or my diet over the weekend, consisting of much fries, coke and chilli. wdv how i got it doesnt matter, im still sick. condition#2. i should be sleepy. somehow i was high instead. condition number 3. uhh the weather was pmsing. in fact the forces of nature randomly decided they should knock down one of the lockers next to the maths classroom. just another reason why our yet-to-be-assigned lockers should not be situated on the 7th floor. in addition, its dot good foh by dose.

knowledge of these conditions will aid u in understanding why my day was weird. simply import them into School (and school related stuff). by definition my day began at 12am, when i was halfway through PW. and sick. whats so weird about that, u ask. well. i was working. (ok so our wr sucks and is only 5 pages long, but at least its there) besides, i slept at around 1, explaining why i should have been sleepy. 1 might be considered early for all the freaks constituting about 1/3 of the school population who only sleep at 3-4, but for me? i am a strong believer in the concept of 8 hrs of sleep being optimum health, and feel that it is my duty to give my tired body sufficient rest. yeah and whoever came up with the theory that sleeping late makes u high is absolutely correct.

ok school today. ill make it brief, and attempt to cover a wider scope. firstly. i feel sad for the 3 ppl not from 7a who signed up for vadis elective. and then Doctor(lol) wong announced she would not be lecturing us anymore. leaving us with ms winnie the pooh, ms jumpy, mr throw-soft-toys-into-the-crowd, ms 'am i going too fast' and mrs you-know-who(yes, voldemort)(short term, anw). and then i shall pretend my lack of soccer skills is caused by sickness. and then maths is boring. and then lit was disturbing. mostly i was disturbed by my not really being disturbed by the bjork videos, when other people were having violent(no double meaning here, seriously) reactions. i think i watch too much hbo. and i think from now on i shall play 'spot the subtle insult from you-know-who(dont say it!)'. todays was directed at gk. "are you using your brains before you speak?!(cos obviously u insult what [little]expertise i have at chemistry, and teaching by asking ur questions, which causes me the trouble of saying they are irrelevant or sidestepping it, pretending i know the answer)" and the bus ride home was spent amusing puva, which is obviously weird since its something i dont do(anymore, not since the initial 'omglookitsjc!' highness faded into 'wthjciscrappy'[i am expressing general sentiment here, i think.])

Ive forgotten what

Saturday afternoons feel like. Crap, in other words. wt (or someone) once said that statistics state that 3-5 pm is the time when most people commit suicide. theres something depressing about that time. its too late for the sun, too early for the sunset. on saturdays at least. it would seem that while on weekdays/sundays theres a chance the sun would still shine in the afternoon, but on saturdays its usually...bleak. besides, saturdays are the worst since theres a higher chance theres nothing to do.

as saturdays go, this one was pretty weird. had quite a shitty night, with about 3 seperate weird dreams, most of which i cant remember. woke up thrice, got out of bed at 930(which is freaking late by my standards). plus my foot cramped. again. lol. watched pokemon ^^. lol theyre getting rly drama. as if ash being emo and doing that carrying a smiling pikachu while tears of joy fill his eyes with background turning hues of pink thing wasnt enough, they decide to make max emo as well. lol like today they played a song that isnt the theme song(which is rare) and max stands face to face with the ralts he cant bear to let go and tears fill his eyes and then he does that looks down to hide tears and hair comes down to hide his eyes then raises head as he resolves to be srtong thing, complete with a breeze that suddenly comes out of nowhere carrying lots of leaves. i dont know if i should cry, cringe, cough, cackle (yes wrong usage i know) or attempt all of the above at the same time.

anw with no bible study/other stuff to do today i found myself reliving the old saturday afternoon feeling. logically with so much homework i should have tried to do some of it, but i was feeling crappy so i went to play dota to make myself feel crappier. (lol i was on the comp from 1130-530). logically with so much homework i should be trying to do some of it, instead of typing crap, but i look at the lit essay qn and decide its too hard. how on earth do i describe a relationship. i think ill do it tomorrow, together with the rest of the damn work. gl hf.

I hate (p double) u

No i have not been struck by angst. however a not-so-interesting train of thought struck me as i was walking home. after mulling over it for awhile, i have come to the conclusion that the letter w can in fact be expressed not only as 'double-u', but also as 'quadruple-u'. this is in the singaporean context, because i am unable to make assumptions about other countries. now i shall proceed to explain the highly complicated process from which the conclusion that the letter w can be expressed as 'double-u' and 'quadruple-u' was obtained. okay the sound you make when saying the letter w out loud can be imitated by the sound you make when saying 'double-u'. in case you didnt already know. however, the way singaporeans say it at least, 'w' can also be pronounced... 'doublew'. try saying it, and you actually get a more accurate pronounciation of the letter w, as singaporeans say it! however, add a hyphen to 'doublew' and you get 'double-w'! how weird is that, 1 W is actually 2 Ws. thats like saying 1+1=1. *shock*. anyway. since one 'w' can be expressed as 'double u' and 'w' can be expressed as 'double-w', 'w' can be expressed as 'double-double-u' which makes 'quadruple u'. lol, the things that occur to me on the way home.

Anyway. time to digress from digression. i hate pw. actually i hate work. ive said it about 10 times today im gonna say it again. do you know how much work we have this weekend??? firstly theres PW. haha okay we have 1500 words, 1000 from jieliang 500 from me and longkuan combined. so, all we need is another 1500, in 3 days. i must say JS was very very kind to give everyone an extension of uhhh. 1 day! so deadline is now tuesday morning, extended from monday morning! however, minus away sleeping time (8 hrs is required for growing chillun), then minus away time spent in sch and travelling (6-4 is 8 hrs) we are left with 24-16= 8 hrs. however time is also needed to bathe eat rest and do other miscellaneous activities. assuming the worst, there are 4 hrs left for pw. so thanks for the 4 hr extension! lol ok fine so its better than nothing. anyway.

apart from pw, theres also the crappy lit essay, from act 5 scene 2 of othello, which we obviously have a good grasp of, and econs case study test to study for, and econs case study to do in the tutorial Hes sadistic. (and im not gonna spell out vpvss because he might chance upon my blog while looking his name up on google). umm and theres maths tutorial. and/or chem tutorial. or something. lol. In conclusion. the weekend is going to be most enjoyable. btw i nv do work on weekend mornings, and my saturday afternoon and sunday morning are both taken. hmm. maybe i shoud revert back to the dark side.

lol side-topic #2. i used to think i was optimistic. lol. maybe i was actually optimistic, i cant really remember. and i still am, in a way. see by assuming the worst, one can actually look forward to an outcome that is better than expected. lol so i dont suppose the homework is that bad.. or is it?

Happy National Day

its about time i update.

uhh. yay. happy national day (holiday). something which rj is working very hard to prevent. haha ok. anw. while my cousins and brother were at nsrcc playing basketball, bowling, pool, rollerblading, cycling and other sporty stuff, which obviously rank among my favourite activities, right next to dota, slacking, stoning, reading, watching tv, etc etc, i was stuck at home, doing pw. i dont know why everyone wants to come to my house for pw meeting, not taking into account my refusal to bring my laptop to tiong bahru macs, but yea. wdv. from all corners of singapore they came to eunos. i must say it was relatively productive(relative to what i dont know). i think its cos the work was relatively mindless. oh well not much shit done for wr draft, but at least we got survey results and interview transcript! and in the case of transcript the work was relatively headache-inducing. joelim might ride a bike and only use a fork when he bought food from stall 6 to cut down on plastic wastage, but hes english is sucking. and hes damn long winded (though g(wee) might beat him). and im serious about the headaches. both lk and jl were struck with them. i almost did, but i think i am relatively immune to headaches. apart from that it was kinda fun i suppose. any spamming that took place either on msn(or on tagboards) was all in good fun (or was it?) lol. oh yes and i discovered (or rediscovered, i might have heard it somewhere before) that banging mouses on tables screws them up. damn, so thats why my mouse is so damn crappy now. if for every death i get in dota( or every stupid mistake i make playing minesweeper) results in 1 bang, lol you can imagine the state of my mouse.

on the topic of relatives, went to nsrcc after pw, to join my relatives, and my relatives relatives (on the other side) for bbq =/. only the most fun way to eat. but oh well, as long as im not the one doing the bbqing ^^. and watch ndp on a screwed up tv. and drink alcoholic beverages. not enough to get drunk. yay and that was a happy national day. or at least it wasnt sad.

lol and g(wee) jus sent..3 emails? containing material for animal rights. and asks us to stay sane. im trying not to think long term, cos thats gonna gimme a headache.

So thats what a waste of time is.

Weird weekend. saturday out from 11-7, sunday 1030-8. wow record. anw saturday scholarship day, boring(been there, been there and going to do it again), wdv, bible study, blah blah blah, overall midly strange. Sunday. right. supposed to go grandmas hse today, for 7th month, too much food or something. hmm original plan was to go back from church (about 10 mins away from grandmas hse), wait for dad to come back from kl then go grandmas hse for dinner. however after church i think my aunt called my mom to inform her our cousins were there (background info, they are aged 6, 12, 14) causing my sister to want to go early( at 1 something). so im like, okay its not so bad, lets eat lunch and go home. but uhh well apparently my dad had to go there too, my grandmas my dads ma after all. so yea. had to stay till dinner. ohjoy. duno why my sister wants to go there either, she goes there, she creates conflict, cos apparently she manages to convince my cousin, the 6 yr old boy, who happens to like whacking people, and my other cousin, 6 yrs old, girl, that my other cousin, whos 4..or 5, and the sister of the 6 yr old girl, is irritating. and apparently she heads the campaign to ostracize her and lock her out of rooms. yea my sisters like that. vaguely reminds me of me. long ago. ok dont listen to my ranting lol. the point is, what a bloody waste of time.

in any case while my sisters busy making my cousin feel sad i find nothing to do. yea sure me n my brother are closer to my 12 n 14 yr old cousins than to any other cousins, but thats more of my bro than me. and we've gone for numerous holidays together, but we stopped having stuff to talk about since we stopped playing d2/pokemon. so i have to content myself with reading merchant of venice. my cousin brought it for revision lol. and i was bored enough to finish. and just before i did my dad and bro came over, in a cab apparently and they brought my library book. yay. the dark tower, stephen king. and after like 4 hrs of reading im down to the last 150/1050 pages. its the last book in a series of 7. ive read 13456. been doing it since like last november. lol admittedly its not very good, and stephen king is obsessed with himself, (to the point where he has to make himself a character in his own story, and engage in self-flaming about how hes too lazy to write the dark tower series, thereby affecting the book's world, and the characters go after him) but book 7 owns the rest lol. anw. soon ill be able to finish, and return the book, which i admit i have severely damaged( it was new wth, now its folded), with a 2 dollar fine lol.

lol i duno if its reading stephen king or sth (the content can get kinda strange) but ive been damn weird of late. for one ive been having freaky dreams. which u do not want to hear of. for two i find myself getting random bursts of anger/dissent (well the dissentiments(is there such a word lol) always been there, but usually nothing would come out of it) that result in random half-violent actions. haha ok. tantrums, if you should call it that. without the screaming. and im being very petty. my capacity for forgiveness still has a long way to go. fine so its always been the case, more or less (less), but i never did see myself as..petty. ah well. things will sort themselves out, i think. oh right and im getting damn drama. lmao.

insert synonym for 'nothing'

despite having econs essay test to mug for, i am bored. and the test basically means i cant play dota with a clear conscience. so i blog. anw its been awhile since i last did. relative to the time period between the other posts that is. on the topic of dota 6.35 is out. for those who play, for a full changelog go to dota-allstars.com. for a full changelog, complete with commentary, go to my source, shadowbamf.blogspot.com. (free publicity for u moca). in my opinion, i was perfectly alright with 6.34. another version, more new stuff = more bugs to fix = more complaints= more new versions= more new stuff. =/. guess people would stop playing if there was no more new stuff huh. oh well.

weeks been kinda...testy? yar testy. chem spa gp essay econs essay test(tmr). i can almost remember the days in ri when we had 3 tests a week for most weeks. almost. wdv chem spa was screwed up. so was gp, i think. i was writing about hypothetical situations, the topic being biotechnology/science fiction. the only practical application that can be found in my essay would be the thing about seedless grapes. i love seedless grapes. seriously. but today was king. or rather the lit department is king. im sure they make us waste our time just so we can listen to booth ranting on about the significance of a movie we were never going to watch.

..and then since i have nothing better to blog about i will blog about my usage of the four letter expletive known as the f-word. i actually wanted to do it on tuesday, when it was fresher in my mind. yes when i have nothing to do(almost always?) i think about what im gonna blog about. so anw on tuesday my thoughts on what i was going to write on the f word were fresher, and so was the word itself. see tuesday was chem spa. right. so i dropped my f***ing glass rod into the f***ing flask, which incited me to go 'f*** the glass rod' under my breath while i was redoing the solution. it soothes the nerves, they say. more notably i went f*** in mocas car. with his dad in it. see despite moca using the f word about 10 times more often than me, but he has better control of his...f-word-reflexes. so maybe his parents think hes a good kid(maybe only. maybe) . mine on the other hand go into overdrive around moca. anw. i should stop swearing i guess. i should stop swearing so much i guess**.

sigh not long enough. monday i heard the flying dutchman and glenn ong flame bloggers on radio. oh well the stomp bloggers anw. for the uninformed they are some screwed up people/celebrities commenting on current affairs, which will be dictated by the straits times, on their blog! and in return ST decides to paste their faces(and posts) all over the papers. so anw they were saying, all this blogging (in general) is all rather..self-indulgent. and then i start to feel guilty. hmm. so i ask myself, am i really obssessed with myself? a lot of unecessary thinking follows before the answer is found to be an obvious yes. obviously my blog is self-indulgent. if you try to count the number of 'I's Mes and Mines on the page...oh well dont try. right down to my expressing of my opinion which in my opinion is always right. but hey, who am i supposed to indulge on my blog if not myself. besides if i didnt do it here i would be doing it alot more than i already am in school. you wouldnt want that would u.

Green black and..white

lol yay i changed my template. well sort of. i looked at my file and considered how much shit i would have to sift through to find the hw, and decided to tamper with my blog source code, using the remnants of html knowledge from sec1. basically i remembered that if u changed the number at the place where it says colour: #something u change the colour! lol wdv. anw i tinkered with it abit and came up with this. yay. now phang can no longer say i copy his blog. anw its green black and white. school spirit ftw. some1 teach me how to change sidebar colour pls lol. oh and check out the cool pinkish-red u get when u mouseover the links.