take that?

muahaha.

In his song

haha alright. today was a sunny day ^.^ not the stifling heat kinda sunny, but warm and windy i.e. nice. lawl, just thought i should document it. since they are rather rare. apart from that i really dont have much to say. i think i lag behind even moca in mugging :o. should start soonnn. then again ive never really done intense mugging before =/. and now i am struck by the urge to go play dota or something. ><

havent been sick in more than half a year, if i remember correctly. (then again my memorys not so good these days) anywayy, havent been sick in a long time. which makes it a lot worse when it comes.

currently my feet hurt, legs are aching, along with my back, and i have a headache and my eyes hurt(lol dont ask why, i dont know either) and my throat hurts. experience tells me that a fever is coming along soon. lol, and theres nothing to do. hence the whining. anyway i suppose it came from synod youth games. too much exertion for my (quite unfit) body to handle, i guess. and the rain -.-. no one else fell sick, so..lol should go train or something. lawl we got owned quite thoroughly in most departments i guess, but the last game was pretty good.

i have alot more to say, but so do you? =/

zzz.

It only gets harder the more that you know

woot thats first song ive played twice (on wmp) in a long long time. apart from new songs lah. lol still dont know what its about though. not entirely, anyway.

Anyway. today = first event pulled off. yay. lol things went alright. pretty good. and mingbao rocks, for coming up with most of the games ideas, and being cameraman+ director for the promos+ having this strange ability to not be frustrated with anything + bringing/making most of the logistics stuff. oh and rachel lu too, of course (why'd i end up doing most of the talking though lol). and team marshals and station marshals. and i srsly respect uncle kien seng for taking that group. non-christian turnout = 19. one convert woot.

well alright. not much to say. lol. kinda tired now, been doing stuff since...7. well running around at least. damn printer + photocopier.

eheh i feel like ending off with some angsty line or quote or something, but nope, uninspired tonight. g'night then. sleep tight.

Walk the Line

hmm i remember when i watched the show. i dont know how it won best picture, but it did. (if im not wrong) anyway it was pretty good lah. and when i grasped the significance of the title. i was quite impressed. i dont remember why ><. since its the title of one of his songs anyway. johnny cash's that is. anyway! today marks the day i first hear the song. on wen loongs blog. oO. (for people who know who wen loong is....thats how bored im getting)(not that wen loongs blog is boring or anything) woot. its a nice song. for something from that era =p. nice husky voice the guys got o_O

so. i should be working. but when faced with too much work one tends towards escapism. my desk. is in a mess. i miss my old file. all there was to do was chuck everything inside. currently cant be bothered with putting stuff back inside. so now my table has many many stacks of worksheets and i cant remember how theyre sorted out lol. grah.

mmm today. was busy, to say the least. church was kinda...strange. no further comment lol. and the streetdance thing was pretty nice ^.^ couldnt exactly see the whole stage, but...whatever lol. im getting to know j1s too. met bennett and longkuan on my way to intended location: esplanade library, an hour early. followed them to starbucks. broke longkuans space impact high score, rawr. and the whole brandon kwan incident was. welllll. interesting ^^

right. should start working. >.<

April fools.

Alright lim min so you were right, it does rain a lot in April.

Everythings moist, decaying and eroded. Hold on to whatever you've got, dont get washed away. and sorry, if sometimes i forget. argh.

Havent blogged in ages. okay lah half a month. sian =p. April sucked. for almost everyone i know. now if April was anyone's favourite month of the year tell me and i will go over and shake your hand. but. oh well. if God has a plan, then i guess everything that happens happens for a reason. just not really fun when that reason is to test. hmph. we'll all get by, somehow and eventually. time solves everything?

I have a theory that everyones life becomes plain ol' weird sometimes, for no fathomable reason. okay its not very original. emphasis is on the everyone. if that makes it any less nonsensical. so at some point or other people start adopting Unwell as their theme song lol. and this is like, a lot of people.

Church is occupying an increasing amount of space in my life. which is good, i guess. second finger still a little numb from carrying the curry chicken yesterday oO. starting to talk to people and all. basically, im becoming sociable. shock. and my lack of inspiration for the pre-E outreach programme vaguely alarms me. lol.

It feels pretty good writing something thats not an essay. after half a month. ^.^ lol. May soon. if recent weather patterns (hoho what patterns) are anything to go by its going to be damn hot. wonder how it'll turn out. much labour or something. lol. damn why are As this year. Must mug ><

Okay enough angst lol. but hey, that felt good.
Edit: nice sunset. =)

this is how i know it's real.

it's always been like this, yar?
Fine. i admit lol. me today = moderately emo. quite silly. i mean very silly.
firstly, thanks, i appreciate it. even if its not explicitly stated. (well now it is ><) explicit isnt exactly my favourite word anyway.
secondly, you know what it's like, i guess. maybe?
thirdly, dont you dare feel troubled. it's really mine to sort out lol. i am, after all, a bloody guy. oh, and i will.

In other news. my cheeks hurt (still). yz anniversary on saturday. i was the miscellaneous help guy, being six hours early and having no specific purpose there. after awhile, i became one of the two pioneering members of the balloon blowing committee! then the electric pump spoilt. so ended up having to do it manually. uhh the other people came and helped after band prac, and about 4 hours was spent blowing balloons. quite fun really. XD. i mean amusing to watch people with balloon phobia. anyway it was about 300 balloons(i think?) between less than 10 people over 4 hours. so thats...quite pro. lol. except later all of them were burst. =/ and we didnt even get a photo. oh right me fingers were hurting yesterday. cause i take more time to tie a balloon than to inflate it.

oh and theres the outreach prog on may 19. im on the 3-man planning committee. and its supposed to be bigger than yz anniversary, so i...really wonder how this is going to work. life is getting a little busier. anyone wanna come. =/ lol

what lies beneath

nebulous, by the way, is mondays word of the day. such an intriguing word. :P

So. it's time for a not-so-nebulous update. i shall cease discussing my state of mind/whatever. always ends up..nebulous. problem is, i havent much idea what to write. so. umm this'll be alot like old times!

alright. long weekend = relatively busy. friday had good friday service@expo. and...im in the planning commitee for pre-e event. (planning committee currently = 3 people) cause only 2 people replied the sms. oO. anyway my generation of ideas for these things kinda sucks. but oh well. lol i can point out alot of flaws though ><. then train ride #1 from expo to civil service club. bowling with phang and lk. umm yay phang owns me now. train ride #2 home. Saturday comes along. train ride #3 to little india. umm writers cip meeting. attendance seven. basically i turned up half an hour late and just. listened to them talk. lawl. the external volunteer appeared to have been left out of all the rj-exclusive talk. train ride #4 home. an hour later, train ride #5 to city hall. dinner with 4i people ^^. best attendance in a longlong time. i miss the old brand of humour sometimes. and we walked alot. originally with purpose. originally. oh and weiren has biceps.:Dtrain ride #6 home. alright i know 6 train rides in 2 days doesnt seem like alot, but by my 4th train ride i was really sick of the whole thing ><. hmm sunday. easter service. which was quite pro. then went to...buy a piano for sister. nothing interesting there though. right. so anti-climatic. lol

about time i blog, i guess. its kinda stagnating, but these days there are no conclusions to anything, or thoughts get themselves tied up.

alright. stuff over the last few days. saturday was kinda shitty. i was rudely awakened, at 530, for...no fathomable reason. anyway the moon was. big and round and bloody red (no pun). had to put on my glasses and check i wasnt dreaming, lol. then the latter half of the day (i.e. after getting home from bs) was spent in a foul mood. all the way till sunday morning. so uhh. sunday stuff was alot better. went lanning. for four hours. after qing ming.

bleagh this post was supposed to be up on tuesday or something. so the last paragraph is really supposed to be longer. heh but whatever. things have been going quite haywire lately, grades and all. sometimes faith wears thin and walls start trembling. but i'll make it through. just like before. in fact we're all going to make it. hope for it. ><

and i dont always know what to say, or what to do. eloquence was never something i had. but i'll be around.

between believing the best and assuming the worst, i tend towards the latter. hard as i may try. been that way since. forever. it also happens that i appear to possess the extraordinary ability to construct, from the presence/absence of things, long complicated trains of thought that get derailed, and end up having to start from the beginning. damn paranoia. lol. Faith. =/. in God, that is. (dont worry this has nothing to do with anyone or anything. seriously.) i'll try. meanwhile, bear with me. lol.

on another note, i dont do engineering. o_O
eh, this is a really short post, but whatever. lol.

this is just to say.

chem owned me. completely. on the other hand, cts are over. then again, highness about it only lasted like 5 minutes. now, i = abit tired. so my eyes tell me. okay. anyway, its been....2 weeks of slacking + mugging + everything else. lol. thanks =p.

anyway#2, yay. 3 days of slacking, ooh. then back to school. we need proper holidays.

anyway#3. hmm. right, wanted to blog on sunday, but wasnt (that) free. umm. youth sunday. lol, service felt alot...different (better). when serving. even if it was just ushering. plus get to pose in long sleeved shirt. and...accumulate hand-shaking experience.

anyway#4. no more. =/. eh, i dont know what to blog about anymore. having to resort to changing colours as substitute. lol. dhoom approaches.

One night of desolation #2

alright. i cant access msn. -.-. or hotmail. they say its no good to 'keep everything inside'. so im just going to...rant.

anyway. i've tried everything. lol. except downloading yahoo msnger, but i thought that might be a little extreme. i think its the damned router (since i've tried using my brothers comp as well). if thats the case the router can go eat shit and die. incidentally this is major problem # 2 with the router/wireless, not including random connection problems. problem#1, discovered yesterday : i get disconnected when my sister shuts down her comp. damn wireless adapter. alternatively it could be the msn server problem, but thats quite unlikely. plus asking around wouldnt be very convenient. -.-

okay so this isnt the first time this is happening. its #2, i think. not including the night of desolation#1, where msn server got screwed (but even then i had windows msnger). the last time...my mom fixed it. lol. i have no idea about my moms actual level of techno proness. bleagh. probably ask her later.

in other news, my mugging is damn screwed up. i mean it ><

lol maybe she wont be able to fix it, then maybe i'll actually start mugging. instead of wasting time trying to fix the damn thing. hoho bnet is working fine though.

[edit] the thing started working after i published this. @_@
who am i kidding this is such a weak rant. lol.
[edit#2] screwed up again. wtf.

Exhale Deeply.

lol this is supremely stupid. i think i fail my logic. and common sense. the presence of the 'i think' would seriously bring to question the accuracy of the statement. knowing that one is being -insert negative quality- (and it is unwarranted) doesnt make it any easier to stop it. so im sorry. lol.

anyway. got screwed by chem test quite badly. that shouldnt really matter, since i lost 15 notes, scanned randomly selected pages of 15b, did the same for 16. all the same i would gladly fall for mssoh's...sort of tactic. motivation is a good thing. cts are coming. watch me. lol.

sigh. hardly motivation actually. not going to last. i should start mugging. oh, and i used to be good. always thought i was, anyway. still do, maybe.

one or two people in class are How to Save a Life crazy. i actually like the song ( it was perfection of first misinterpretation, sometime late last year. actually i mentioned it in passing) but i might soon start referring to it as 'that damn song' at this rate. funny thing is i never quite managed to figure out what it really means. the confusion is primarily due to the presence of three protagonists, i think. heh i dont think many people really could, judging from all the weird youtube videos involving suicide. and other foolish ways of dying (actually i only watched one, at weirens request). well it was grammy nominated. not that i think it deserving of winning, but...the dixie chicks won. =/.

the next two weeks look like a lot of shit. saturday please come. (evening, the rest of the day looks to be really screwed up. and...i saw that.)

there. all better ^^. and dont ask please.

=/)

yay. gp is done. paper is weird. i screwed it up. i think. i dont care lol. i will not think about the rest of the papers and the dismal state of my revision.

been a long time since i blogged. i think i forgot how to. sigh okay. anw i are kinda tired. today whole class was tired ><. maybe my being tired has something to do with the 3 hrs of talking crap with crunch and phang (and later lim min)(and earlier longkuan) after school. its quite mad lah just sit there and talk and talk and talk. actually listen to all of phangs 'did you know's. intended to go home at 3, then 315, then 430, then 445. actually went home at 6 oO. but quite fun lah. lol. the day before was spent trying to do work with lk and phang, but ended up talking crap with lk and phang till 530.(lol i just remembered the lit essay. shit) phang is the constant, obviously. i just cant decide if the phang came first or the crap came first.

hmm. and my moods been swinging quite badly in school lol.

lol i think i've been quite the asshole (or emo) the last few days. that is to say, being less sensitive than usual, and basically giving less shit about anyone apart from myself. i'm not reproaching myself about it though. (does that make me an asshole still lol). hmm. maybe i should be that way more. more selfish, to quote anonymous person (in case he objects to his identity being revealed). some things affect you more than you thought they would. some things affect you more than you thought they would, and theres relief, because theres truth there, and truth can never be absolutely bad oO.

well, if i happen to have offended anyone, my apologies. (thought chances are you probably would have started it -.-. just so happens i might have been more volatile than usual) i should be (almost)back to normal now, i think. i could credit dota for that. it helps blank out emotional state. unless some you get into a virtual argument with some idiot.

brevity of whine.

i think i could laugh at myself. days are longer in the shortest month, and i want to sleep.

lol duno why i tire so easily nowadays. nowadays being..since saturday? think its the cnys fault. like wth i saw relatives on my fathers side for 4 consecutive days. as a result of my being quite tired (damn maths, and im still at 11a) this post will be void of intellectual stuff. or anything remotely funny. hmm humour has been in short supply the last week+.

so. since last week: my very own laptop. oO. got windows vista summore. which is quite cool but the entertainment sucks. they record ur minesweeper win rate. mine is like 4% currently. as such i have decided to switch my primary source of entertainment when theres nothing to do. it was Chess Titans for awhile (which is basically chess), but now its Mahjong Titans (which is basically match-the-tiles). dont look down on it, playing it for extended periods of time (which really dont seem very long) results in sianness to the highest degree, and potential headaches. zzz this morning i thought of resolving to play nothing but dota. hasnt worked out.

chinese new year. dont want to talk about it.

miscellaneous. so many things to do. so little time i dedicate to them. really screwed. oh and i think my scandal saturation levels are reaching maximum capacity. if that made sense. therefore i have decided to take a break from discussing old/overdiscussed scandals. which is basically almost everything. lol. okay tired liao dont want type liao =p

Once, upon a forever

hmm. happy valentines day, or something. hmm. how long it has been. Very, i think. least it seems that way.

anyway. since i last blogged: my house is pretty much..pretty. right. kay wdv its looking quite good. my life is currently not falling apart, tyvm. my understanding of the damn lectures and status on tutorials, though, is still the same.

on my 18th valentines day: save some random stuff, rather uneventful. but relatively, eventful. quite stupid, actually. lol. so nothing much actually happened apparently. but longkuan got a rose. it would appear his pri sch classmates all like him very much. or someone else does. i got ego marshmallows from lk. oO. and i have a story to tell someday. lol too much chocolate doesnt feel very good.

chinese new year approaches. and woot i just threw away a whole bunch of hongbaos. (and removed the money) (see last or last last post) i love my efficiency.

But who gives a shit about the hongbao when what really matters is whats inside. lawl.

(woops, deleted part n/a anymore)

doesnt matter anymore

kay honestly i still do not get it. been rather moodswingy lately. if lit is in my blood then i must be losing a lot of blood.

anyway my room is almost up. that is to say i now have aircon. yay. and it is now painted. orange ftw. double yay. and my table is uber neat, cos all the mess is in a box. and there is now cable. and i can access the internet, so its back to the old routine. and woot the laptop is currently in my room, which is a first. old routine meaning i can waste a lot of time basically staring at the screen waiting for the sky to fall. well the internet free days have been a lot more bearable than expected. sunday was absolutely shitty, internet withdrawal at its best. monday i was hanging around school the whole day, got home like 10+ , so there was hardly any chance to miss msn/dota. plus there was internet at lks house oO. tuesday...lol was at home for like 3 hrs? spent the 3 hrs downstairs. renovations kinda left the place in conditions unfit for doing anything. started reading screwtape letters again. clive staples is some sort of genius guy with a whole lot of sense. and later went to timbre (?) either timber, or timbrei, wdv. mm. well now i have back internet so take it away even for a day and i am going to suffer from severe withdrawal again. and i am falling asleep. so i appear to be typing stuff to myself(and typing nonsense inconsequential sentences) again. damn homework.

to the stars.

woot i am wide awake. i am moving tomorrow. how does one say goodbye, even to a house (an echo-riddled one).

on a separate note this house was really the reason for my changing primary schools. and who knows where i would be now if i hadnt moved. somewhere quite different, no doubt. still in this school, i think. but. lol. but if God had a plan, has a plan, then i guess it could not have happened any other way.

its a full moon tonight. some bloke on radio says its called the snow moon. the full moon at this time of the year. anyway. i am out of here, into that shithole. for now its a shithole anyway. who knows what its going to be like, after renovations.

anyhow, you're not likely to see me online for the next five days. at least. so its no msn or dota for the next 5 days. its not going to be pleasant, but after so long, i think i can endure that. lol. well. goodbye then.