Theres some sick pleasure in melancholy

which was probably wad i was feeling most of today yar. today reminded me(again) of how doing nothing is more draining than doing something. how strange, i was stoning for >an hr in the canteen, falling asleep during chem lecture(sort of) but then evening came and things were suddenly brighter. and for the past few hrs ive been bloody hyper. maybe its PW. but what ive been doing since 9 is walking around the room(in circles) for about 5 mins, coming back to the comp, playing minesweeper (132 lol!), flipping through the mass/mess of notes on the table, maybe typing a sentence or two (if im feeling up to it), then rinse and repeat. which explains why i took 3 hrs to type 400 words. anw pw has to be done in the middle of the night, or it wont feel right.

btw. from doing eom i can conclude that pw is really not about creativity, or teamwork, or any of that bullshit. seriously it actually hampers creativity. all it is is forcing students to do some weird subject with no basis, and then fulfill some weird shit requirements that was crapped up by some weirdos in moe (and dont even make sense). and they make u follow all the stupid guidelines. dont state this, no marks, dont link that, no marks, dont explain to the guy like hes some pri sch kid oso no marks. they just..create their own marking criteria. and it doesnt even make sense lol. as jai singh likes to say, ' we go by their rules and play their game lah okay'. err or something like that. the point is its yet another pathetic attempt at 'revamping' the education system, but perhaps the worst one yet(and ever). lol heres an analogy. its like doing botox injections. u see botox, u just inject, in the end the woman has a swollen face. lol okay neil humphreys says blogs are spaces for free expression, but instead of flaming the pap why not bitch about eom and moe.

lol oh right now i remember why i was feeling crappy most of the day. twas vadi announcing the start of stress season. =(. haha okay i don wanna think about it, write about it or do anything about it.